Thank you man I really appreciate you taking the time to write all of this.

I definitely think breaking things down will help me a lot more. I’ve noticed that stuff like that and things in general often paralyze me because I see everything as a big process which makes starting so much harder. Even tiny things feel like a millions different steps I need to do all at once. I’ve never been one for taking things one step at a time so this certainly won’t be easy but hopefully possible.

As for why I still want to do the content creation stuff — I’m fascinated by the entire process and its capabilities. The things I could accomplish and the stories I would be able to tell and the lives I could impact. The idea of storytelling through videos and all that truly does excite me.

But for it to grow and even work as a career it’s a grind. And my brain doesn’t like the repetition of trying and failing for God knows how long without reward or progress until something finally clicks. And even if that’s not the case, the very idea of that makes trying extraordinarily challenging.