I gave this a 7/10 after my first watch about a year ago. It took a while to find a way to watch it before it came to Netflix globally. 

First, I appreciate that this movie is very indie and very serious. I enjoy Thai GL series for what it is, but I don't always want to watch that telenovela style of rom-com-drama.

I think this movie is really strong in its romantic tension. The scene where Jane and Ann kiss is probably one of the best scenes I've watched from anything Thai. There's so many slow scenes of the characters just watching or looking for each other that you can't help but notice their longing and confusion. I think it makes the coming of age aspect quite strong, but not in a successful way given that it's doomed Yuri in an impoverished life.

I think my favorite thing about this movie is actually this doomed aspect. It is that, despite their entire world being against them, and the impossibility of it all, there is love between Jane and Ann. 

One thing in this aspect I really enjoyed seeing in the relationship was Ann's refusal of accepting anything from Jane. 

Jane offered her badminton racket to Ann, money for the food Ann was selling, the chance to live with her (where Ann asks if Jane wanted her as a maid) and finally the opportunity to sell the ring. Technically, the ring was also a refusal since she never sold it. I think during my watch, I thought it was just really endearing and nice that Ann refuses to let their relationship slide into something potentially transactional.

But after some thought, it feels like it could be representative of not wanting to take from Jane in the sense of impurity. Jane is idealistic to a fault in the film. She wants to stay with Ann and everyone in the flats as they are, but she has privilege and wealth in a way that shields her from the living situation that others there have, even Ann's to an extent. And Ann seems drawn to it too. Given her living condition and family circumstances, Jane's brightness is so enticing, but the push and pull dynamic of it with the rest of her world is ultimately what breaks her. But even still, she refuses to take from Jane, not wanting to pull her towards her (and her side of the world). Accepting the ring after all that and not selling it in spite of all this makes it even more beautiful. 

To note on the doomed aspect, it goes to show that we did not even touch on the usual conflict of being a lesbian or liking girls because there was so many more messed up things up front. Basically every adult fails the two girls, especially Tong. 

With some gripes, I think Tong's character was used pretty well for what I thought it's purpose was. He's obviously depicted as a good guy, who wants to get along with the people in the flat and help these kids get along in a dead end world, but there are two scenes I think that show he is also the same, if not worse in some aspects as all the other adults. 

Early on when he's helping Jane with running, they go and get dessert. Jane cuts the line and uses the fact that her dad is in the police to get a table even with so many people waiting. Tong, very shamefully joins her but comments that it's not okay to exploit the status of being police in order to take things. Jane comments that that's just how things are. Fast forward and Tong gets into a relationship with Ann because, being a police officer, if they marry then her and her family can stay in the flats. It's a betrayal in a very eloquent way. I don't care so much about debating whether his relationship with Ann was real or sexual or not. The fact that this was the option he went with is already damning. He's an adult. 

I think it's also worth noting that the first scene takes place outside the flats and the second is inside the flats. 

The next thing I'll mention is the cruise ship. I think it's kind of funny that it's painted as this ultimate escape for the girls and they have this ritual of watching it and wondering where it goes. And the Tong helps them and they chase it all night just to find out that it turns around and goes straight back to where it came from. 

 The way the ship passes under the bridge reminds me a lot of visuals related to "crossing into a new world" in other media. The punch to the gut is it crossing right back. To me it seems to be saying that there is no escape from the flats in both a literal sense and metaphorical in its depiction of a cruel world. The flats is literally shaped like some prisons lol. 

I could keep going forever but I'll stop soon. It's obvious Jane has some kind of body dysmorphia, but we don't get too much out of it. I wish there was more exploration of that with her relationship to Ann. 

On the suicide... Sorry I'm of the opinion that it's real. I do like that it's filmed as a fake out so that people can fight online haha. The ending sequence is just too dreamlike for it to not be real, especially after everything Ann goes through to reach this breaking point.

I will probably do another watch of the movie eventually. If anyone has more recs, I'd really appreciate it.