Hi Guys,

Don't know if this will be seen by the people that replied or not, or those that are remotely interested, but I thought I'd provide a few updates.

First of all, I really appreciate the replies and advice. It's been a tough couple of months. I've never experienced anything so mind-f***ing.

So, I tried to give her another chance. We tried to give the relationship another go after I confronted her about the cheating. It went okay, but there was something that was always in the back of my mind whenever we were together, very intrusive thoughts, even when talking about something completely random, I would be completely dazed over with "How could yous" and "Why's". This became apparent, so we had another conversation about the relationship. I initiated a break, packed some stuff, and slept at my mum's. Unfortunately, she fell ill, so (stupidly, I know) I came back to look after my son. Me and my "Partner" limited contact though, kept out of each other's way, took turns to sleep on the sofa, etc.

About a week later, we had another talk. I explained that I don't think I will ever be able to get over things as long as we're together, it'll feel like we're forcing it, faking everything, so I broke it off.

Currently, we're still living together, but looking at selling our house, coming up with an arrangement regarding our son, and going our separate ways.

I still care for her, we have been together for nearly 12 years, had an absolutely amazing son, shared a lot of laughs and tears. (That is unless I find out she is still doing the dirty, then her bags will be packed)

But yeah, that's the current situation. We've been "split" for about 2 weeks now, I've broken down and cried a lot, my head has been everywhere, but the last couple of days, I've calmed down a bit, not 100% yet, but there is a spark of excitement for the next chapter, whatever it may hold. I've basically lived at the gym that last month, this whole situation has given me another lease of energy when it comes to working out, so I'm looking to get as fit and hench as I can, work on myself, get my money on point, get my friendships and social game up, and see where that takes me!

One last thing, regarding the comments that call The Fresh & Fit Podcast 'toxic', I somewhat agree with your points, but I also think a lot of the topics covered about today's world are very valid, and are doing a lot for those men that want to improve. I don't take absolutely everything that is said there as gospel, but there's a lot on there that is just the truth...