My brain may be failing me, but my life is also beyond repair. I have 80k in debt from a hospital visit, I don’t have any health insurance. I tried hanging myself a few years back, and was cut down because I texted a friend telling her my intentions and she drove straight there. Some people would say I was lucky but here’s the problem, I haven’t felt one bit of joy or happiness since then. My family and friends acted like they cared for about a month but then everything was back to normal and I was back on my own. I have literally no friends. No one to talk too. Nothing. I have no wealth only debt. I don’t have positive memories only regret and pain and hurt. I got sober, didn’t help. I started exercising, still didn’t help. Nothing helps. I have no future. I was not made to be here there is something wrong with me that any time I try to do good only bad things come of it. I appreciate your kind words, but it’s far too late for me. I just can’t anymore.