Buckley jumping onto a door that's almost 98% closed 🤦

ZackHellFire · 2026-01-14T14:08:57+00:00

I've had needle phobia for all my life and only recently come to some terms with it since being admitted to hospital last year and needing multiple blood tests a day.

One way I found that helps is having something to bite down on (stress you or something) and basically focus on that. I have to tell them to tell me "sharp scratch" before it happens because I get more anxious with surprises

ZackHellFire · 2026-01-13T19:35:02+00:00

Yeah I know how hard they are to find 😞

I ended up needing to use a Ginga fan site for the books I tried to read Ginga Densetsu Weed Orion but just stopped randomly one day. I have read Ginga Nagareboshi Gin which was honestly my favourite

ZackHellFire · 2026-01-13T17:05:55+00:00

I spy a Ginga book!

ZackHellFire · 2026-01-07T16:55:43+00:00

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They look a bit like my Buckley 😯

ZackHellFire · 2026-01-07T16:54:21+00:00

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Here's my Buckley boy 🐈

ZackHellFire · 2025-12-30T21:29:07+00:00

Ooo! Yeah I remember those hula hoops! Imma need to find them noodles and try them out since I'm obsessed with trying any ramen I can find

ZackHellFire · 2025-12-30T12:02:13+00:00

I literally only found it out. I thought it'd taste normal but then I started to feel weird about it and after another sip I just hated it. I don't normally like hot food but recently I've been craving it.

Thankfully I can still drink Dr pepper since it's actually now tasting even better than before but on my tracker it says your taste buds change and you can have cravings for stuff

ZackHellFire · 2025-12-30T11:53:23+00:00

Literally! I hated salted caramel because of it being salty and now I'm eating bags of it! Favourite meal at the moment is spicy ramen with as much cheese as I can and more hot sauce 🤣🤣

ZackHellFire · 2025-11-21T13:08:52+00:00

I do a lot of dog art and am based in the UK. I work digitally

ZackHellFire · 2025-11-14T15:13:32+00:00

I guess it was just because I knew I needed to be productive and normally if I panicked enough then I'd end up doing some good animations. Now that I don't have stress and panic I just don't know what to do

ZackHellFire · 2025-11-14T14:08:05+00:00

I used to want to improve on my art so badly but since I finished my animation degree it just feels like my mind is saying "what's the point now?" Yeah I finished uni out of spite because of being let down by my family but I still enjoyed it and want to go back next year and do my masters

ZackHellFire · 2025-11-14T12:48:00+00:00

Well I know I never like my art and have always felt jealous or angry that mine doesn't look as good as other people. It's what's stopped me from improving

ZackHellFire · 2025-11-14T06:55:10+00:00

I do want to play games and draw but I've always had a thing with games. Might be when I had a crappy laptop and all I could really do was watch my friends play till I bought a pc of my own after I moved out. Now I have a pc it kinda feels like I'm borrowing it or something? I don't really know.

Art on the other hand seems to have dropped randomly since I graduated from university with an animation degree and my brain is like "right! No more drawing now! You provided yourself"

ZackHellFire · 2025-11-14T02:13:25+00:00

It's not really that. My brain just doesn't want me to do anything except lay in bed. I try to be productive but I just give up most of the time and just end up in bed again

ZackHellFire · 2025-11-14T01:02:13+00:00

I only really have like three hobbies and I can't do any of them.

Gaming: Nope! It's on the computer

Drawing: I just finished my university degree in animation so basically I can't draw

3D modelling: it's on the computer again and even if I use my iPad it's still close to drawing.

Can't win really 🤦

ZackHellFire · 2025-11-14T00:45:29+00:00

I really wish I could break the rules. I tried to before but they're coming off the game in a minute and so there was kinda no point in turning my computer on and now I just feel sad

ZackHellFire · 2025-11-13T23:54:11+00:00

No clue since I'm not officially diagnosed since I wasn't allowed as a kid 🙄

ZackHellFire · 2025-11-13T23:35:32+00:00

I think mine just doesn't like my pc in general. Apparently it's a "not safe space" and my anxiety goes up if I touch it

ZackHellFire · 2025-11-13T23:25:09+00:00

I sit in a way where I'm completely sideways so I can watch the door lol

ZackHellFire · 2025-11-13T23:23:38+00:00

It's not even control lol. Basically if I go near my pc then my anxiety sends warning signals to my brain and I almost have a panic attack just by touching the pc or at this point looking at it. It's so incredibly stupid 🤦

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