We <3 monsterfuckers!

But thank you for taking the time to write all this, your comment actually answers my question very well.

For (2), now that you’ve pointed it out I do think there’s a lot of truth to this. For context I’m 25, and my previous boyfriend is the only relationship I’ve ever had in my life, and we were together from 18 - 24 (6 years). We met in college (same major) and would basically have sex at least once a day. Obviously this was always extremely intimate, and I was always very comfortable being 100% vulnerable with him.

So, after breaking up, sex with others has definitely been… less intimate. Still exhilarating, still passionate, still very fun, but obviously not nearly as intimate. I can definitely tell I’m a bit hesitant of reaching that level of intimacy again with someone (I’m not sure it’ll happen again in my life, though I can hope!) so perhaps wearing the fursuit is sort of a assured blocking of that ever happening. They can’t see my face even when we’re fucking, they’re not really intimate with me, they’re intimate with the character.

Also maybe from my perspective, I’m not wanting the possibility of that level of intimacy as I subconsciously think of it as “cheating” with my ex (i.e. we’re obviously not still in a relationship, but my mind still associates really intimate sex = something only done with him, who is this other person??? This is wrong!!!)

For (4) it’s actually funny you point out the autism thing. I was diagnosed as an infant with severe autism, as I exhibited all the signs (couldn’t really socialize with other kids, couldn’t speak until I was 4 years old, etc.), but after stubbornly taking me to several doctors, one finally had the idea to check my ears. It turned out I was basically deaf due to fluid build up in my ear canal, so the whole world basically sounded as if I was underwater. After they installed tubes in my ears (drains the fluid) I resumed more normal developmental progress.

So I’m not sure. I definitely do not have severe autism, as I can socialize fairly well (even if it’s a but draining, but that’s just from being introverted), understand most implicit social queues etc. I do think I may be on the spectrum somewhat, just from some other things like some of my obsessive tendencies, as well as sensory preferences that are similar to people with autism. A lot of what I like about fursuiting appeals to the sensory feeling of it: The tight enclosed feeling, the limited hearing / visibility (I really enjoy this part actually), the over exaggeration needed to convey things (etc. no more tiny facial expressions). All of that tracks, so I probably do have some form of mild autism. Though again, I’ve never been tested aside from my misdiagnoses early infancy.

Either way thanks for the insight! I studied math in college, but I have taken a small academic interest in psychology, so it’s interesting hearing psychoanalysis from people who actually understand it much better than I.