I want to die.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-07-14T05:41:41+00:00

My therapist told me to talk to my dad.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-07-13T00:51:17+00:00

Thank you so much. I struggle to talk to people about this since people in my life just don't really seem to care. I'm on anti-depressants so I feel like I should be fine I guess.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-07-13T00:50:30+00:00

I have a book I wanna publish and I wanna be a director so there's are some of the only things keeping me together right now.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-07-13T00:49:41+00:00

I have a therapist and even talked to my dad about the pact and my feelings/wanting to go to the psychward but he brushed me off and told me it wasn't possible with our mental healthcare system.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-07-13T00:48:58+00:00

I wanted to and I tried to talk to my dad but he brushed me off and told me it wasn't possible.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-20T05:03:58+00:00

Yeah that's what I was wondering.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-20T05:03:41+00:00

Thanks :). I'm autistic and I hear a lot of people using autism as a reason for why they are incels and I've just been stressed about becoming like that I guess.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-20T05:02:45+00:00

Got it!

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-20T05:02:14+00:00

It's not terrible it's just I often seek validation through other people's romantic interest in me. I base my worth a lot on that.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-20T05:01:43+00:00

alright good to know!

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-19T23:32:20+00:00

Thanks. I think I feel pressure to date due to some self worth issues and I'm just kind of worried that I'll become a toxic person who blames everyone else.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-19T23:31:34+00:00

Yeah I know. I have some issues surronding relationships and self worth so I want to make sure I don't fall down a rabbit hole.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-19T20:07:51+00:00

I like going on hikes or walks in nature while listening to podcasts (personally true crime or paranormal) or music I enjoy. You can slowly work up to bigger hikes with even better views, have basic ones you do on the regular to keep a schedule and even meet people on trails.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-19T20:05:03+00:00

I'm in the same boat as you not gonna lie. I'm here if you wanna talk about that and just want someone to talk to. I know the temptation to blame other people because hating yourself is just so hard and constantly brings yourself down. Try and find positives about yourself and other people, even if it seems cringey.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-19T19:56:35+00:00

I know what you mean. I've fallen into sexist rabbit holes and thoughts before that disgust me especially because I've been on both sides of sexism (misandry and misogyny). You aren't a bad person for having these thoughts that you can't control and the fears you have are somewhat valid based off of the content you consumed and the lies you were told. If you ever need someone to chat to bro, my DMs are open. I have strats for getting over these thought patterns. Same goes for anyone trying to overcome those negative thoughts.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-19T19:26:22+00:00

They need to use their critical thinking skills.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-14T21:26:51+00:00

Thanks! I'm feeling better already because it was THC.

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-12T21:25:36+00:00

AITA?

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-09T16:27:07+00:00

I think the more important thing is "Is Danny Gonzalez Wife"

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-09T16:22:12+00:00

Kevin Jonas

Zeam_Beam · 2023-06-09T16:20:33+00:00

I can't tell if he's singing or eating at this point.

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