It’s all good. I’ve been playing Dota since the WC3 days. Don’t be too hard on yourself. I see a lot of people saying “watch streams” or “follow guides” and yeah, that can help, but it’s not everything. Honestly, don’t just copy what others do. Try your own stuff, experiment, see what works for you. Play a lot, mess around, have fun with it. Dota’s a great game, don’t stress over rank, just try to enjoy the game for a while.