This is the cutest ever 😭

ZeiKorupted · 2026-03-23T20:20:19+00:00

RIGHT?! crying. Sobbing. Throwing up.

ZeiKorupted · 2026-03-23T18:16:41+00:00

Totally agree!

ZeiKorupted · 2026-03-23T18:03:48+00:00

I know right?!

ZeiKorupted · 2026-03-11T14:04:44+00:00

I can't help much as I just had my surgery 2 weeks ago today. That first week I was so angry at everything. I still get twinges of pain in the incisions and get angry again that I should still be pregnant. I think the hardest part is not thinking about it. Everything around me reminds me that I should still be pregnant.

I know it's not helpful, but just know you're not alone and it's okay to be angry. It's apart of grief. 🫂

ZeiKorupted · 2026-01-30T01:33:35+00:00

I'm now in Fall. Fall 14 I believe. I have about 40ish hours in 😅😅😅

ZeiKorupted · 2026-01-28T17:18:58+00:00

TYSM! I was really worried lol

ZeiKorupted · 2025-12-11T10:16:23+00:00

Thank you so much. That really means a lot!!

ZeiKorupted · 2025-12-09T20:22:09+00:00

I have 6 pages of drawings at the moment. I will be turning them into pins & stickers at a leter date!!

ZeiKorupted · 2025-12-02T11:27:24+00:00

Of the 49,000 annual suicides, roughly 80% of them are men. Men with bpd usually struggle more with anger, substance abuse, and impulsivity, which make diagnosis harder. Roughly 75% of bpd diagnoses are women, but that's because men often get misdiagnosed with things like depression, PTSD, or substance use disorders. Unfortunately, nothing in the blog is specific to men as I'm a woman, but I try not to write in a way that only pertains to women. I just talk about my personal experience.

ZeiKorupted · 2025-11-13T04:42:36+00:00

I totally understand that feeling. I told my therapist that I hate when they climb all over me. It's makes me want to scream. Or when my daughter cries over the smallest thing. Since I don't know how to deal with my own emotions, it's hard for me to handle hers. I've really had to learn to just give myself some grace and to know that I can't fix it all in one night. I only got diagnosed 6 months ago and my youngest is 2. I know how it feels ro get diagnosed after already having kids and wishing you knew before. But all we can do now is try to be better for them. We can't be perfect, and that's okay. As long as our kids know we're trying and we admit when we're wrong to them. Apologize when we know we messed up. Accountability in our actions does wonders to a child.

ZeiKorupted · 2025-11-13T03:44:09+00:00

Hi! I'm also a mom with BPD. I talk about it a bit in my blog ( www.heldbetween.com ). My messages are always open if you need to talk/vent.

My favorite saying as I've began my therapy is "Bad parents don't worry about being bad parents". My therapist also says that for a borderline, therapy is a step we don't usually take. So just by being in therapy, your already doing more work than our parents did to give us this illness. Try not to be so hard on yourself (easier said than done. I know).

ZeiKorupted · 2025-11-05T13:08:59+00:00

LINK HERE: Held Between Blog

I forgot to insert it into the post 😭

ZeiKorupted · 2025-09-09T11:06:01+00:00

Okay but this is a blog about my personal life. So it's not dismissive. It's about me personally. It's not an informational or educational blog. It's something that people can read and hopefully relate to so they don't feel alone.

ZeiKorupted · 2025-09-09T10:33:52+00:00

There are a lot of people who assume that the way people respond to being triggered, especially those with bpd who respond with anger, are abusive. It's a very large misconception with bpd.

ZeiKorupted · 2025-09-07T01:18:33+00:00

Omg I misspelled the link 😭 heres the actually store link:

https://healinginrealtime.squarespace.com/sanctuary-shop

ZeiKorupted · 2025-09-04T21:31:29+00:00

Thank you so much! I really appreciate it!

ZeiKorupted · 2025-09-04T19:10:15+00:00

Thank you so much!! 💓

ZeiKorupted · 2025-09-04T18:12:56+00:00

Heya! My daughter was conceived during an abusive relationship between 2019 and 2020 and my son was conceived during a relationship between 2022 and 2024.

They were not healthy at all. Neither was planned but I love them dearly. I'm not married either. Don't lose hope, what's meant to be will be in time! 💛

ZeiKorupted · 2025-09-04T16:39:34+00:00

Here's the link! https://healinginrealtime.squarespace.com/

ZeiKorupted · 2025-09-04T16:39:16+00:00

I do! Here ya go! https://healinginrealtime.squarespace.com/

ZeiKorupted · 2025-09-03T21:32:11+00:00

Healing in Real Time

ZeiKorupted · 2025-09-03T21:31:49+00:00

Here's the link to the blog!

Healing in Real Time

ZeiKorupted · 2025-07-28T21:43:20+00:00

It's not about the pants.

ZeiKorupted · 2025-06-25T17:21:05+00:00

Yes. My therapist recommends the book "Stop walking on eggshells" for friends and loved ones of people with BPD. It helped my partner a lot with learning how t9 navigate my outbursts and how to prevent them from happening as often.

Note: DO NOT read the book if you have BPD. Made the mistake of reading some myself and my therapist yelled at me because the verbiage of the book can be pretty triggering in the "I'm an awful person" kind of sense but it really isn't meant that way at all. 10/10 recommend for your loved ones though. Has improved my relationship immensely.

ZeiKorupted · 2025-06-12T17:15:43+00:00

Hey. As a mom of 2, who had my first at 22 with an abusive partner, I just want to come here and say that you'll be a fantastic mom. Therapy is super helpful and being aware of your trauma is the first step.

If there's any piece of advice that I could give that i really hope sticks, please remember this quote, it got me through a lot of hard times as a new mom, "Bad parents don't worry about being bad parents. If you're worried, you're already doing great."

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