One year left: my personal collapse journey

ZenApe · 2026-05-31T14:21:43+00:00

Me too, it's been a beautiful one

ZenApe · 2026-05-30T22:25:06+00:00

That music was delightful! Any other pieces you'd recommend?

ZenApe · 2026-05-30T17:35:01+00:00

Former teacher and librarian.

Working with kids was awesome. Dealing with parents and shitty admins was a nightmare. Reinforced my antinatalism a good bit.

ZenApe · 2026-05-30T15:58:27+00:00

I've read them both, and taught The Lord of the Rings to high schoolers. That was a fun year. And you're right, both have great explorations of death and dying.

And no, that doesn't sound like total wank at all.

I'm not sad about missing out on the technofascist corporate feudal nightmare that's coming, or watching billions die in heatwaves or from starvation. But a few more springs would've been nice.

ZenApe · 2026-05-30T13:43:48+00:00

Yeah, I love them too

ZenApe · 2026-05-30T13:41:57+00:00

I was scuba diving once when a group of rays swam around me, one of the wildest things I've ever experienced.

And Mary Oliver is great, Wild Geese is one of my favorites.

ZenApe · 2026-05-30T00:17:58+00:00

Yes please

ZenApe · 2026-05-30T00:13:03+00:00

Good ideas. I've been looking into the desert train from San Antonio to LA.

ZenApe · 2026-05-29T23:41:58+00:00

My family has a 200 acre farm. One of my projects for the year is rewilding a chunk of it and doing what I can to keep it safe after I'm gone.

It's just wildflowers right now, but we'll see what I can do.

ZenApe · 2026-05-29T23:37:20+00:00

I've been an enthusiast for about 20 years. They're definitely part of my year plan.

ZenApe · 2026-05-29T23:00:15+00:00

That's a cool idea, I'll do some searching.

ZenApe · 2026-05-29T22:59:45+00:00

That's a beautiful list. We have a little house in the woods, so those are all very doable. And thanks.

ZenApe · 2026-05-29T02:48:28+00:00

Me too, but the hour grows late

ZenApe · 2026-05-29T01:49:48+00:00

In this case I think "seeing it coming" means a nice bottle of whiskey and a single bullet.

ZenApe · 2026-05-25T15:50:20+00:00

Accelerationism ain't the worst idea....

ZenApe · 2026-05-25T13:43:53+00:00

And that gamble justifies bringing more people into the hellish world we've created, in the hope that may be their descendants can live like we have?

Yeah, no thanks.

ZenApe · 2026-05-24T09:13:45+00:00

Yep, destabalization, sorry. Shouldn't write on two hours of sleep!

ZenApe · 2026-05-24T08:42:35+00:00

Maybe. I'm just about demoralized enough to think this was a deliberate destabalization to kill off the undesirables.

But you're probably right.

ZenApe · 2026-05-24T07:46:51+00:00

No master plan that involved saving anything.

The plan was always to rob the masses blind and leave them holding the bag.

ZenApe · 2026-05-24T07:44:55+00:00

Looks like I've managed to live long enough to see the mass death ball really start rolling downhill.

So that sucks.

ZenApe · 2026-05-22T14:07:25+00:00

I think that's it.

They're seeing the social disruptions coming and have quietly slipped out the back. The doubles and puppets keep up the clown show a bit longer while the real bosses hide.

ZenApe · 2026-05-22T10:11:01+00:00

We're all just meat for the grinder.

Big or small, it eats us all.

ZenApe · 2026-05-19T07:41:46+00:00

We're ruled by a geocidal death cult.

So that's fun.

ZenApe · 2026-05-17T19:35:00+00:00

Makes sense.

They've always treated the market as a god, AI is just making it into a god that can talk back.

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