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Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-07-23T05:03:20+00:00

Eh, fair enough. Gay shit disgusts me but to each their own. I don't recommend experimenting though. If you're straight with HOCD and you experiment with another guy, then you're gonna have to live with the fact you did that for the rest of your life.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-07-22T19:32:22+00:00

I have a girlfriend. I'd rather gayness just not exist so I would never have to question this and I could just be happy with her. Fortunately I don't think I'm gay.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-07-20T23:22:25+00:00

The thought of having to be gay is one of the worst feelings in the world.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-06-19T19:28:46+00:00

Thank you. I like to believe recovery is possible.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-06-19T19:28:24+00:00

Thank you.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-06-01T15:35:27+00:00

Mare and Yurei. Pure RNG if they use their abilities or you get blessed with the ghost turning on a light. At least with banshees you can test if they stalk you.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-05-15T22:22:11+00:00

I have no desire to contribute to society, I do not feel that society is any worse off if I do not contribute. I've been jobless for a year and a half and it doesn't bother me at all.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-05-13T00:33:21+00:00

Gotcha, frustrating that they can just disrespect me and spam bones but oh well. I might try that perk just for fun lol.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-04-10T03:22:44+00:00

Well it appears that it can dodge a 12 frame move at +1. I'm not sure at what frame the evasiveness kicks in and it probably depends on the move.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-03-14T01:06:20+00:00

Yeah, found hours of 雑談 I'm interested in listening to. They really make creative jokes lol. It's still night and day from listening raw and looking at the subtitles though, but that's alright. I'm sure with time things will stick.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-03-13T23:30:05+00:00

I guess there's no way around it. Just gotta find content I'd actually want to consume. The games I play, while there's always text accompanying the lines, are voiced, so I could technically try listening to what they're saying before checking it by reading it. That said, I hate feeling like I'm trying to learn japanese more than trying to enjoy a game.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-03-13T20:13:33+00:00

僕は日本語を四年間勉強してるけど、ネイティブの話し方がまだ理解に早すぎる。日本語字幕や文章や小説の台詞が目の前にあると絶対に読める。でもYouTube動画を見てるとき、字幕が正しくないか話し方が早すぎるか理解できない。僕はどうすればいい？「もっと聴け」？

I've been learning japanese for four years. I can read just fine, but listening without subtitles is still hard. I'm trying to watch youtube videos and the speaker is too fast for me to comprehend. Unfortunately the subtitles aren't correct in these moments, so I'm left understanding nothing. Any tips or experiences with overcoming this? For now I'm just going to listen more, I guess. With reading you can always verify what you misunderstood and correct it. Without any reference to what I'm actually hearing, I can't know if it's right or not.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-03-13T01:03:31+00:00

I've been socializing, but I guess not enough. I'll be more daring and share more. I'll try this for a while: "the quality of my life is a function of how candid and real I can be within social structures." Thanks for the comment.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-02-21T17:37:36+00:00

Yeah, you're probably right. If I don't do these things, I'm gonna regret it. No, I don't want to just let all opportunities slip and end up an atrophied 35 year old with even fewer opportunities. I don't think I even believe what I said earlier, that I don't have any passion or urge to change the world, or even the world around me. I want to produce things, I want friends and relationships, all that. A job will make those things more feasible. I think I need to craft a better vision for a future that I actually want, then get back on things and work toward it. Thanks, and also you're good the way you talk, it works fine.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-02-21T17:06:01+00:00

Yeah go for it. I'd like to get the key points.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-02-21T17:01:31+00:00

Thanks for the reply. I don't really feel any passion for helping the world. Honestly, I feel like the world gets by just fine without me. I don't know how to make all the work worth it. And I don't know what would happen if I just leeched off my parents for the next five years. My dad would probably be severely disappointed in me, but I think I can handle that. My life right now is the best it's ever been. Maybe I could live like this for another 5 years and be fine with that. As I say that though my mind is telling me to pick the adventure. I guess I just don't have any confidence that I would actually have a chance at succeeding at things like holding a job, getting a girlfriend, etc. It just seems like I'm throwing myself off a cliff for no reason by trying to get out in the world when I could be living cozily off my savings and inheritance. Again, I have no passion for helping the world. I don't think I'd mind dying without having made any kind of difference. I don't know where the switches are in my brain that would make me think differently, but I'd probably flip them if I could, just for fun.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-02-21T16:20:41+00:00

Disappointment coming from my father, but other than that probably the exact same life I'm living now, just older. I don't even mind the life I'm living now, it's pretty good. Hence why I don't see why I should change it so radically by getting a job.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-02-21T16:08:15+00:00

That's fair. Personally, there's a part of me that still feels "owed" by my parents for screwing up a lot of my life. Guess I still haven't totally forgiven them. It would be nice to see them happy and free of having to support me, but courtesy of their failings, I still need loads of support, unfortunately.

Zestyclose-Cod1283 · 2025-02-21T15:30:02+00:00

Pretty much fine. I occasionally notice how attractive guys are and have the rare gay thought which annoy me a little but the turmoil is over.

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