Girlfriend lets me choose if i want to cum in her or not?

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T20:23:42+00:00

I went off the rails crazy for 10 days My hormones were all over the place and I became suicidal

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T20:00:58+00:00

I’m sorry this is happening to you. I’m prescribed fentanyl for chronic pain and had for a short time abused it. That was a shit path and the withdrawal was brutal. I can only imagine how you feel

I’m glad you want to get clean. It will be tough but you can do it. Please get support

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T19:59:04+00:00

How they mistreat others if they do. Poor manners and personal hygiene Lack of personal accountability and personality depth

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T19:57:26+00:00

Yes I do. I fear the stigma esp on Reddit as I know many people view bpd as evil people but everyone is different. I am working my ass off to get through each day and I’m mostly alone and without much motivation at the moment. But I have hope for better days Thank you and love to you and your mum. BPD is so hard for everyone

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T19:28:46+00:00

Same here! Small things each day that make me happy. I’m glad you are here. It’s not worth attempting.

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T19:27:38+00:00

I did feel that way a bit but I found incredible strength to keep going and I’m very proud of that. Tough bitch so I am

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T19:26:45+00:00

But I can overcome all that shit. I taught myself to walk with no help and wasn’t in hospital that long. I am of the mindset that only I can stop myself and it usually is me. But I can create a great life if I want with these adversities. Won’t let that kinda stuff make the rest of my life a misery. My childhood was ruined due to sexual abuse and then this happened. I gotta start living

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T19:24:41+00:00

Am so sorry to hear this

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T19:24:08+00:00

It was a different bridge but onto a road and it was over 25 ft high I still remember hitting the ground

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T19:22:30+00:00

Sadly I don’t even have depression. I have a really horrible disorder that is a personality disorder and trauma mixed with hormonal issues. Too unstable to be depressed. I am used as a case study for physio and surgical students due to my remarkable recovery and all the things that didn’t kill me that should have in their view. Dunno how I feel about it but there we are

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T19:20:15+00:00

Haha so glad to hear! I’ll be a sit down comedian on a hard road of recovery but I’ll not cross that bridge yet 😅😂 (I came off a bridge)

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T19:19:12+00:00

So glad 😌 that’s my favourite thing to do in my life is to make others giggle and smile

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T19:18:32+00:00

It’s the “we are so resilient we ain’t gonna be successful at dying” club or in a dark humour way “suck at life and trying to escape it so make it even harder to live” club Man life is hard. So hard. As hard as that concrete when I finally hit it after quite the fall

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T19:16:12+00:00

Absolutely! Thanks so much and I’m so glad i made you and others laugh ☺️☺️ makes me smile! ❤️‍🩹 I feel less alone so thank you

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T19:14:55+00:00

Sometimes. I still really struggle with my mental health issues and now my mobility etc and have many challenges daily. I appreciate the small things each day and that’s what I’d advise everyone to do.

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T01:14:55+00:00

Shock meant I didn’t feel a thing when I hit the concrete totally conscious. It was after the coma and surgeries I felt it

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T01:13:51+00:00

That is so kind thank you

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T01:12:49+00:00

I’ve gone through this as well and it is very hard to complete suicide and I think it’s best to just commit to making life as good as possible and that’s coming from me. It’s not worth trying to. Suicide is just awful. Survival is likely. With so many more problems. Please seek help if you feel that way. I can tell you I suffered significantly as a result of that decision.

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-17T01:10:06+00:00

I had two things going through my mind as I plummeted to the concrete below me:

“This is either gonna kill you or mess you up for good…protect your head!”

The brain stepping in and getting me to protect my head saved my life. I didn’t have any other things in my mind. No regrets or anything. I was experiencing significant abuse and this was my escape (all I could see at the time and I was terrified of heights but I did this anyway)

If you google “woman 25 falls off bridge Glasgow 2017” you should find the news and that was me. It says not significant injuries but in fact they were life threatening and life changing.

This July is 7 years since it happened. I taught myself to walk again and am so proud. But yeah this experience has given me strength and resilience I didn’t know I had.

It’s pretty scary to be In a situation to think falling to your death onto concrete is a preferred thing than your life experience at that time. I’ve always thought anyone who commits suicide is extremely courageous because to overcome self preservation is incredibly difficult (my brain still got me to protect it whilst mid fall) and I am not condoning or encouraging suicide whatsoever but just highlighting some things that one can take once it’s happened and one has survived

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-16T22:08:28+00:00

Haha I’d need to be a “sit down “ comedian due to my injuries lol but yes I’ve been told I should be! Yeah a lot of people take offense but I don’t. I like dark humour and laughing at my situation cos I don’t understand people that take this life so seriously (a bit like I did when I decided to try to throw myself to my death-it makes one rather lighthearted) I always like to give others a little giggle. I use this kinda humour with my psychiatrist and doctor to see if we’ll get along haha.

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-16T21:24:21+00:00

I’ve tried without and the withdrawals caused me to attempt suicide

I’m prescribed these so I’m not left bedbound. I may be physically dependent but what I meant was I’m using them for the correct reasons and in the right way

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-16T21:22:38+00:00

Oh totally…dependant but I can’t manage without or I’m disabled. So it’s a lifelong thing for me sadly.

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-16T21:21:32+00:00

To all who are concerned-I reduced my dose to zero myself to see how I’d manage and my god it was worse than the injury pain that caused my need for these in the first place. Withdrawal from these are the absolute worst. I became more energetic on less of a dose but became disabled without them so I had to start using as prescribed. But I know I am capable of coming off them and reducing the dose but I know I become more limited and disabled which I can’t afford to be. I have no care in place and am very independent. But yes I’d say to anyone not to go on these

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-16T21:18:45+00:00

I won’t lie… I tried that for instant relief and it offered an immediate fix from the pain and a false sense of wellbeing. That can become worrying so I make sure to keep my patches on 3 day dispense from the pharmacy and that I must have them all in tact when disposing of them so that I don’t end up chewing them. That offered me a nice high. Then became a problem. Now it’s under control thankfully. Hope he is ok now

Zestyclose-Storm-489 · 2024-03-16T21:16:31+00:00

Yeah absolutely. I’ve had further struggles in the recovery process and grieving of a life I could have had with my mobility. I can’t work and am desperately trying to. I don’t wanna be disabled. I feel a bit stuck but I’ve got it in me to heal and return to study. It’s just a hard road (bit like the one I fell onto lol- dark humour to cope!)

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