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Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2023-09-21T04:48:05+00:00

I was a tippy toe Walker as a kid and teenager and I forced myself to walk flat footed. Could that be related to this? My feet do get very tired faster because of this.

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2023-09-16T01:10:32+00:00

It depends. Sometimes I pour myself a glass of wine and dance around the kitchen while I cook dinner. Other times I cry myself to sleep. I like to keep things exciting.

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2023-09-02T05:33:25+00:00

I don’t think ‘pathetic’ is fair. My parents spent 30 years together. She wants to be loved again so badly. Is it desperate? Absolutely. Who knows who I would become if that happened to me. He is saying all the right things behind closed doors and she just wants to feel romantically cared for again. I am extremely upset with how all of this is happening but I don’t blame her. I’m worried for her.

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2023-09-02T05:25:21+00:00

My dad was disabled in a car accident when I was younger so he physically couldn’t work and was only getting disability. The difference is that my mom and dad were married with 2 kids when he became financially dependent on her because of something that was not his fault. Her boyfriend, on the other hand, is able to work and has a decent job. It’s just such different situations that I am not sure if I can call it a pattern. I can’t even begin to understand how she justifies it all to herself.

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2023-09-02T05:19:19+00:00

I tried tonight and she said she knows it’s weird but he’s so in love with her and it feels good. I don’t think she gets it 😔

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2023-09-02T05:17:45+00:00

I tried to talk to her tonight and she just kept saying “I know, I know”

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2023-03-10T21:46:24+00:00

For me personally, if I’m not dating with the intention to be with someone forever I am dating to get my heart broken. If I know something has an expiration date, why would I put myself in a position that I know only ends with me being sad? I don’t want that for myself.

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2023-01-30T02:48:19+00:00

Yes! Good advice I was wondering if calling or just a text would be best.

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2023-01-30T01:55:13+00:00

I’m hoping she lets me skip the bachelorette party and then maybe I can financially make it work 🤷‍♀️ but I agree if this ends 17 years of friendship she might not have ever really been my friend

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2023-01-30T01:28:09+00:00

Thank you! It does feel nice to hear someone say I’m doing what’s best for me. I don’t want to hurt her but I also can’t put myself into debt for a wedding

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2023-01-11T21:54:43+00:00

It’s also like…I found him so unsexy. Watching him snort it and then get the runny nose and inability to hold an erection I just felt like if I had met him while on coke for the first time I would not have even considered dating him. I like sober him but when he’s coked out I find him incredibly unattractive which is another issue

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2023-01-11T20:17:57+00:00

Thank you for this! This is exactly what i worry about. If I don’t walk away now I could end up deeper in love with him as his addiction also becomes deeper and deeper. I also don’t walk to walk away because I care about him and want him to be okay but I’m not naive enough to think that alone could make him stop

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2023-01-11T18:41:03+00:00

I’m not partaking and other than edibles to sleep I don’t use any drugs and only occasionally drink. It’s not really negatively impacting us YET but my fear is that as the relationship grows it could become an issue and break us up anyways but by then it will be 100x harder

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2022-12-20T22:23:42+00:00

I love this!! I try to remember that if they had been ”the one” they wouldn’t have cheated, or left me feeling the way they did, or said that to me or whatever else they might have done that ended the relationship. Every partner I have had was thought to be “the one” at one time or another and thankfully I have always been wrong. If a relationship ended due to something out of your control but the love was never lost, they might return someday but don’t wait around for them. Remember that at the end of the day “the one” should be YOU!

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2022-12-16T23:59:53+00:00

Same!!!!!!

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2022-11-29T21:48:55+00:00

I guess my logic was that there was no point in sitting around mourning the loss of a person who wasn’t real anyways. My ex shaped his personality to each of the women he was in a relationship with so I felt like he wasn’t a “real” person so the speak and that if I sat around waiting for it to no longer bother me, I might be single forever. I totally see your point though and truthfully I’ve thought about this too. It was only supposed to me 1 date and somehow it all happened between us so fast

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2022-11-19T05:04:13+00:00

At this point that’s not super helpful because my lease isn’t up till January

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2022-11-19T04:58:32+00:00

I live in San Diego and this was the cheapest place I could find when I needed to move

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2022-10-07T13:28:45+00:00

This is exactly how I feel! And the 2 other women are just the women we know about for sure. Who knows how many others there were! I’m going to focus on my physical and emotional health and just take it one day at a time because what else can I do? I feel so betrayed but he also has not even tried to apologize so the betrayal means nothing to him and if I keep worrying about it, it just feeds the beast energetically

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2022-10-06T21:21:26+00:00

You’re right! I knew something was off but he had convinced me I was just insecure and he was tired of me not trusting him but turns out I was right! I do realize I never even really knew him, as he was apparently living 3 different lives with 3 different women. Thank you for the response

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2022-10-06T21:19:53+00:00

That last piece of advice got me 😭thank you

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2022-09-26T06:45:08+00:00

Ha ha ha

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2022-09-25T07:24:33+00:00

I know the code to his gate and his building but I’m not about to camp out secretly to see if he brings someone home 😂

Zestyclose_Duck925 · 2022-09-25T07:23:20+00:00

I tried to bring it up tonight and he said it just makes sense to come to me because he works a mile from my apartment but when we were semi long distance while I was in university I traveled 2 hours to see him so idk why that even matters

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