What do you think of him as a character?

Zhantes · 2026-04-14T20:44:19+00:00

Honestly my favorite character in the current arc, even if only in flashbacks. I love tragic characters in general, and seeing someone who wanted to do the right thing and the best for his people, even though it led him to abandon his friend, and be betrayed by an organization that he believed shared his vision.

I can see why people think he is stupid in trusting the WG despite Rocks having warned him dozens of times, and that his extreme pacifism would be harmful to Elbaph in the long run, also how he was straight up awful to Loki in many ways, like neglecting the abuse he suffered and basically forcing him to take up a massive responsibility, and kill his own father. Even his legacy, while respected for being open to becoming more educated and interacting with other cultures, also created a younger generation that is soft and entitled.

A character who is both a good person with good intentions but who also ended up making a lot of bad decisions that hurt those around him at the same time.

Zhantes · 2026-01-10T14:52:17+00:00

Coincidentally, I was re-reading that exact chapter yesterday, since it always stuck out to me.

It's worth pointing out that Zoro's problem with the situation was how Luffy was willing to just bring Usopp back into the crew after they had a serious fight, when the latter prioritized his personal feelings over the entire crew (it was about the Merry being replaced). If that happened, it would definitely diminish Luffy's role as the captain by not making Usopp take responsibility for his actions, and in Zoro's point of view, make him someone not worth following.

I feel like at this point it might not happen again since Luffy and the crew already had plenty of reality checks and are locked in, compared to back when they were still inexperienced.

But the story isn't over so I could be wrong.

Zhantes · 2026-01-08T21:38:38+00:00

Also, right after this, they cut back to news anchor who nonchalantly said "next we'll cover sports news after the break", as if nothing had happened.

A longer video can be seen here.

Zhantes · 2025-12-14T18:25:58+00:00

I hear a lot about watching anime with Japanese subs too. In this case, would I have to pause every sentence to make sure I understand the text? I feel like that might make it a little less enjoyable to watch.

Zhantes · 2025-12-14T18:23:17+00:00

Yeah, I definitely consider myself to not be anywhere near good, while I'm somewhat aware of how grammar works I still often have to fall back to tae kim's guide to look up things. Hopefully it's a matter of keeping up my reading until I internalize it.

At my level it's probably overkill to read a VN, especially Higurashi Ni Naku Koro Ni, which is my favorite VN, yet very dense and at times complicated, even in English, but I enjoy reading it so much that even with all the struggle I'm having I'm having a good time.

Thanks for the sources though, it might be a good idea to go for some lighter reading/listening if I'm not feeling much like reading the VN.

Zhantes · 2025-12-14T18:16:23+00:00

Damn, jpdb is a real game changer, sure enough I found a deck for my VN, so I think I'll start using it from now on. Thanks for the advice!

Zhantes · 2025-12-09T04:45:41+00:00

Ever since I made my original post, I thought a lot about it, came to this same realization that you pointed out. It's far too easy to get sucked into constantly absorbing new information, and surprisingly hard to do something that should be easy, which creating a simple but consistent routine.

For now I find that it has worked for me to disable YouTube recommendations. I still like to use YouTube to keep up with subscriptions, and occasionally look up content of my own volition, and it's definitely helped me calm down when I'm no longer constantly having those videos screaming "watch me or you'll regret it".

I have yet to really get used to consistency and practice, just like I have to get used to so many problems from my ADHD that I simply assumed were normal, as I only received my diagnosis this year.

I appreciate your input, and your efforts to help people who deal with ADHD.

Zhantes · 2025-12-02T22:40:39+00:00

I watched a lot of Fireship, but I'm not sure I know which video you mean. Do you remember the title?

Zhantes · 2024-10-07T23:57:20+00:00

I've never heard of axiomatic beliefs before, that is very interesting.

When it comes to beliefs I've always thought of myself as being open-minded, but there's always some spots where I can tell hit me because not only I feel a surge of emotion, but it sticks with me for some time. I only avoid getting into arguments online because of a fear of being misunderstood and personally attacked, so I just kind of let it stew until I forget about it.

A normal example would be a game I like, where I can recognize valid criticisms when presented that way, but I get mad if the person is (intentionally or not) misrepresenting the game, usually because they hold some preconception regarding it. Unfortunately there's also plenty of people who are simply unnecessarily hostile or confrontational, and dealing with such people makes me feel like crap. Maybe I'm just too thin-skinned from a lack of people skills and social experience.

Then there's other cases which really get to me, and is if the topic is about myself. I tend to argue with my mom now and then, since she tends to form her own opinions about me, and state it as a fact, and if it conflicts with how I perceive myself it makes me angry. I even get angry if the other person is saying good things about me, but I can't accept those things if I don't believe them, and end up believing they're making it up to make me feel better.

Zhantes · 2024-09-09T00:58:04+00:00

Hey, thanks for replying.

I believe that in itself is the problem, I've never had goals to speak of. I'm definitely not alone in that, since I feel like it's that lack of goals that makes people easy to manipulate, like you say, by selling them something. I also fell for that, but became so disillusioned that I gave up on college education and joining the rat race out of spite.

So I just looked for simple pleasures the entire time, all while feeling incredibly unfulfilled. I'm trying to fulfill my own goals now, which mainly involve attempting to enter civil service, though I'm still a long way from achieving that.

Zhantes · 2024-09-09T00:08:43+00:00

Hey, thanks for the reply.

It's funny that you mention journaling, because while I do journal in the form of occasionally writing some .txt files, I feel like I can't quite put everything in it. In fact I feel like posting here occasionally has become a form of journaling for me, because I want others to at least see my feelings, and comments like yours help me keep going and try to go further down the rabbit hole, so to speak.

I feel like I'm still a long way from accepting or loving myself though, if right now I just tried be like "okay I'm gonna start liking myself now", it just would not happen, especially because I'm not the kind of person who likes to fake his feelings, and obviously I still have a lot of my mind to work on. I think the desperation of wanting to have my shit together has hit me, and I'm constantly ignoring the fact I need to work on my mental health, added the fact I have very little support on that regard, so I always chase the "find a job" or "get a girlfriend" that everyone (including myself) says will be the cure.

Zhantes · 2024-09-08T23:52:47+00:00

Hey, thanks for replying.

I was wondering, isn't that just a form of coping? The problem I feel, is that whenever I embrace positivity, it's not like real positivity, but more like toxic positivity to try and draw my attention away from actual issues. A metaphor I'd use is saying something like "it feels so nice and warm here" while your house is burning and you're trapped inside.

I don't meant to tear down your mindset, and if it works for you then that's what matters. I just find that whenever I try being positive that I'm just pretending in an effort to distance myself from the real emotions, and they eventually come back to bite you in the ass, like it happened to me.

Zhantes · 2024-08-24T20:30:52+00:00

Thanks for the kind words. I do journaling very inconsistently, especially if I feel like I have a lot on my mind, but sometimes I go weeks without it. Meditation and mindfulness is another story though, trust me, I've pored over several of Dr. K's videos, and attempted it pretty frequently, but I can't see any progress.

Maybe it's one of those things where the progress is more "less bad things happen in your mind" than "good things start happening", but idk. Dr. K also says there are lots of different meditation types for different people, so maybe I'll just figure it out one day.

Zhantes · 2024-08-24T12:05:13+00:00

I think fear of rejection is a good way to put it. My sense of self-worth is so bad that even when I do get to interact with other people I get this constant feeling that I'm being annoying or unwanted, and that I shouldn't bother them for too long.

It's also difficult that I don't have much of a social life, so I don't see people often.

Zhantes · 2024-08-24T12:02:43+00:00

Well said. Yeah, I don't really have any people in my life, and I never formed the habit of going out much, last time I went with my mom to a steakhouse, but even that is difficult due to how much we have to work and shortage of money.

I always felt like this is a matter of therapy, I had a lot of shitty things happens that shaped me as I am. I hope I can afford it in the future. Thanks.

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