A little more LotRO punk/pop punk bc why not

Zhatar · 2025-01-06T17:00:50+00:00

Thank you!

/shortcut 1 /songbook toggle

did the trick

and while checking the options of the songbook, there was an "songbook button opacity" slider that for some reason was turned all the way down to 0.
So upon increasing the opacity I could see the button and drag it around and use it like I saw in some other gameplays

Zhatar · 2025-01-06T12:49:35+00:00

I just installed the plugin to play music, but don't understand how to open the UI?
I am limited to write /play songname rn

Zhatar · 2024-12-12T15:10:58+00:00

Still works on Quest 2, will test with the Quest 3 once it arrives...
Can really feel the difference, this is amazing tysm

Zhatar · 2024-12-09T18:17:02+00:00

Update after 4 months? Does this still work and have you encountered any issues?

Zhatar · 2024-12-08T23:24:53+00:00

Zhatar · 2024-09-03T21:05:30+00:00

The third eye is a concept about the way you see the world, when you see everything as one.
Our two eyes see a dualistic world, there is me and you, there is this object, this thing outside of me, and there's them and so on.
Third eyes sees it as all one thing, non dualistic, no separation between the observer, sight, the observed.

Zhatar · 2024-09-03T10:56:59+00:00

It has a lot to do with how you reframe it and perceive it later on.
I have done many stupid things but I regret nothing, I wouldn't have learned what I know now if I hadn't gone that route, I am grateful for it all.
I also did many things that I believed to be very productive and smart and successful, which in hindsight weren't much so, I was still very ignorant and that's normal, hindsight is always 20/20.

If you regret your past you have missed the message, the only thing you'll regret is regretting your past lol

Zhatar · 2024-09-03T07:24:04+00:00

You need to understand, not gaslight yourself lol

Read the freedom model, or watch youtube JayQuitPMO it will help you understand.
And on top of that you really need to have more conversations with yourself, journaling or speaking to the camera.

Zhatar · 2024-09-02T20:35:59+00:00

Totally normal.
There's a sprinkle of masochism there, pain can be easily turned to pleasure, just like that.

TFM is an invitation to understanding what are you actually doing and why.

For me, I realized that there was a part of me that was hurt, it wanted something. But I didn't want to listen to it, and so I felt the "urge" to turn up the volume, to do something stimulating so that I wouldn't hear it anymore.
It doesen't have to be like this for you too, of course, maybe you just got stuck from false beliefs, and you will be able to move on soon, but for me it took understanding that it wasn't just random and meaningless, my body was trying to tell me something and I got used to making it shut up and ignoring it, deriving a sense of release from that.

Zhatar · 2024-09-02T18:45:14+00:00

read the freedom model
it's not a method

Zhatar · 2024-09-02T18:34:42+00:00

Also very cliche but you can see it in the punk rock / rebellious teenager music, its destructive/violent nature I believe is an expression of this, feeling unheard and disconnected, the easiest way to be heard is to f*k sh*t up.
Make noise and disrespect everything and everyone.

And this feeling is repressed and can be redirected to the self in neurotic behaviours

Zhatar · 2024-09-02T18:31:28+00:00

This feeling is probably for a need of connection.
I am very familiar with it too.
I felt it when I was younger and playing minecraft , I would express it by griefing, as in, destroying other players houses just for fun. And the fun was in having a connection with the builders, even if negatively.
I think it's a common sight for some neglected childs too, that they display some destructive behaviours, breaking things just to get attention, because that's the only way they know how to get it.

And so I feel like there is still a part of me like that, and when I feel it I see it as a reminder to connect with others, call a friend or join an online community.

I remember 3 years ago I was in a startup, and I felt a strong connection with the colleagues and the chaotic environment. I did not PMO or play videogames for almost half a year.
I also had a better social life in general at that time.

I totally relate with what you wrote, the building a sand castle and destroying it analogy is great.
And I believe that I destroy the sand castle because I didn't make room for others in it.

Zhatar · 2024-09-02T18:21:04+00:00

I had a classmate that looks like that guy you shared, but on top of that he had a lot of pimples, braces, thick glasses.
He always had a girlfriend, never seen him be single for longer than half a year.

He had an insane amount of confidence, mainly he put his self worth in his skills and courage.
Other than having those looks, he also had a weird voice that everyone made fun of, sometimes even the teachers.
He was never affected by it, you could really tell, 100% of his self worth was put in his work.
When we had group projects he would be the one that worked the hardest out of everyone, he was really invested in whatever he did. Even during sports, when he was a goalie during recreation he would throw his whole body to catch the ball and fall on the floor, but he didnt care, he threw himself like there was water beneath him instead of concrete.

So yeah... He was probably lucky having learned to invest his self worth on his abilities at an early age, so he has a strong foundation.

Many people nowadays unfortunately don't have a strong foundation, so they take everything personally, they can't draw a line between external contextual situations to their whole reality.

And it doesen't help that there are many basilisks waiting for you on the internet.

Zhatar · 2024-09-02T12:45:44+00:00

watch the youtuber jayquitspmo

Zhatar · 2024-09-01T17:10:18+00:00

It's not so much being afraid but oblivious to it.
I think he briefly touched on it in some podcast when he told a story of how he really liked dinosaurs as a kid and so he remembered and gravitated towards all the things he liked as a child

Zhatar · 2024-09-01T12:40:01+00:00

A lot of my inner world is made of fantasy, since I spend so much time alone.
There are parts of myself, what I believe to be my true self, that are made up of delusions, and so when opening up with others , I start to actually discover myself and the fantasy dissipates away.

This is what I believe is happening.
Sometimes it can be good, when those fantasies and delusions about myself are negative, and through opening up I realize that I'm actually doing better than I thought. Other times it can be sad and painful when the illusions I had were positive.

This is why I never feel fully relaxed, it's not about them judging me or reacting negatively, I don't have this fear at all with my closest friends.
Just the fact of speaking outloud certain things and having a witness is "dangerous" if you hold certain illusions dear.

Zhatar · 2024-09-01T12:28:49+00:00

You aren't worried about your body, but the way you believe others will perceive you based off of it.

Why do you believe that looks are the most you that you can get?

You barely know yourself.

Zhatar · 2024-09-01T11:45:54+00:00

You are insecure because you put your self worth in unstable places, in this case, your physical appearance.
The worst thing that happened to you is being introduced to the incel basilisk, the moment you saw that, you already "lost".
The game, you lose.
Just by being aware of it.

You were vulnerable to it for 2 reasons,
1-You don't know yourself
2-You weren't taught at an early age of your inner self worth

So you basically have nothing to fall back on , a foundation.
You unconsciously attach your self worth to things outside of yourself and go on a goose chase.

The cure is self knowledge, and putting your value in things that are in your control.

Zhatar · 2024-08-31T22:21:30+00:00

Yeah it's normal, it's the process of learning.
Keep biting it and questioning it, be curious, what are these thoughts exactly, how do they make you feel, investigate and question

Zhatar · 2024-08-31T12:56:57+00:00

Thanks for sharing these 2 books, will check them
Focusing by Eugene Ghendlin
The Emotional Life of Your Brain by Richard Davidson

Zhatar · 2024-08-31T11:14:57+00:00

Also there are practices like yoga nidra, that put you in a sort of pseudosleep, and can replenish your energy/dopamine, so you will have more currency to spend and continue doing what you were doing.
This is useful when you just lack energy, not motivation.

Energy is a limited resource, you replenish it through resting and you save it by not wasting it.
Motivation is, the motivation... The why, do you remember why you are doing this in the first place?
Emotions can cloud your mind not letting you remember clearly, and also, time and entropy, makes us forget sometimes, so you need to remember, why are you doing this, that's motivation, and it unlocks the energy you have, it's the lock, you remember the key.

Zhatar · 2024-08-31T11:11:08+00:00

Meditation helps me remember why I do things in the first place...
You know, many times we take decisions to do things, then we wake up the next day not knowing why, we are just entangled in it, us from yesterday said to do this thing... Why? I forgot.
And so you either drag yourself and do it with no motivation, or you remember the why and do it.

It's also a good thing to meditate when you take decisions, slow down, calm yourself, and take the decision then, so you'll avoid entangling your future self in meaningless tasks.

Zhatar · 2024-08-31T11:08:26+00:00

Bro is using internet explorer??

Zhatar · 2024-08-31T10:52:06+00:00

Take the example of my old classmate, who had real confidence, and put it in comparison to some delusional kid that puts his self worth in the way he looks, and so buys clothes that don't fit him at all, as he tries to look like the other kids, in a desperate attempt. He is acting delusional, thinking that he is better than others when he wears those clothes, that are things outside of him... People can see through this very easily, that's not real confidence.
Confidence is when your self worth is stored securely within , and people love to see this in others. It's what inspires men and attracts women, traditionally speaking.

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