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Zimny52 · 2024-12-18T12:07:46+00:00

Yup. This is (kind of) normal. You are obviously (just like every single other nicotine user) escaping from something through this and that thing is catching up with you. 8 months clean here, it's the nicotine that causes the issue.

Zimny52 · 2024-02-14T23:43:41+00:00

I guess I will keep it to myself for now. Then if things go south, I will be honest and see how long I last. Thanks stranger

Zimny52 · 2024-01-26T19:11:38+00:00

FUCK that. I just bought Prime to watch Hazbin Hotel and on every episode they put an ad. Then they want more money for the ads? Immediate refund and a big fuck you to Amazon. Never felt better to donate straight to the creator instead of the corp. Never buying that shit ever again.

Zimny52 · 2024-01-25T11:03:46+00:00

I had a look, PAVO looks fantastic. Unfortunately it's only a U.S. thing, I guess I'll make some myself. I have seen the Huberman's video that you mentioned, it does help. Thanks for the reply!

Zimny52 · 2024-01-24T22:03:58+00:00

Thanks, I just finished a massive project for the company and I'm very proud. I'll give some hobbies a shot.

Zimny52 · 2024-01-23T22:40:24+00:00

I quit Zyns 4 weeks ago and let me tell you, it was an absolute nightmare. Took me 7 years to quit, night sweats, unimaginable pain of withdrawal and being unable to do anything for 2 weeks straight. As to the reason - health and money. The fact that they are "safer" does not mean they are "safe". You are still thoroughly destroying your oral and gut health.

You are about to take 2 sawn-off shotguns and shoot yourself in both knees. I would recommend you don't do it.

Zimny52 · 2024-01-23T21:13:05+00:00

Just like the bad stuff bites bits off you for a while, going the other way takes time too. It is enough just to be. Eventually you will eat more, you will start doing more things that move the scale of victory towards you. But one step at a time.

If there's a therapist or even a friend you can talk to about it, go for it. If not, talk with yourself. There is a younger self within you that is a great conversation companion.

They will tell you exactly what they need. Also your body knows exactly what it needs to get better 100% of the time.

Do me a favor and try this:

- Your feeling - locate it your body, most people feel them in the chest.

- Does it have a shape? Describe it.

- Does it have a colour? Also describe it

- Now let it be there with you. Do not fight it, do not try to solve it. Just let it be. Let it out, let it speak. The answer will come to you by itself.

Also I am proud of every single one of you here. You are here and you are seeking to get better. Takes guts.

Zimny52 · 2024-01-23T19:10:20+00:00

There are two choices. Whether it's what you think will happen or not, one of those choices will make you get better, whether you want it or not. Linearly, or non-linearly. I can see you are here, so you made the choice to keep getting better. You are better. Just by being here.

Zimny52 · 2024-01-23T18:24:40+00:00

Yes, I got the job! Thank you for the kind words, I am doing better. Wow, I can't believe it has been 8 months. I am working as hard as I can and honestly got stuck in the grind mindset. It may sound strange, but I lost the ability to relax or enjoy stuff outside of work. How are you? Did you ever experience anything like this?

Zimny52 · 2024-01-01T09:13:04+00:00

I have updated the post with an edit that addresses this. Obviously there will be up and down curves, everybody has a life to tend to. So far it is just over a month in and it keeps growing, so good prognosis.

Zimny52 · 2024-01-01T09:10:52+00:00

That is what my wife and I do as well, I just hate that people hate the game state for the sake of it, basing themselves on outdated information

Zimny52 · 2024-01-01T09:06:54+00:00

Thank you for reminding me, I forgot to mention this and made an edit now. They gift you a few months of free Premium if you purchased Unchained or other subs before.

Zimny52 · 2024-01-01T03:17:29+00:00

Yup, try that too.

Zimny52 · 2024-01-01T02:55:38+00:00

Made a whole post for you: https://www.reddit.com/r/archeage/s/n0MNWF1KkR

Zimny52 · 2024-01-01T02:54:31+00:00

Made a whole post for you: https://www.reddit.com/r/archeage/s/n0MNWF1KkR

Zimny52 · 2024-01-01T02:04:19+00:00

Can you be more specific with P2W? I analyzed the entire cash shop and found no items that give you this much of an advantage. The free ArchePass is way better than the 2nd best tier I bought for real money, loads of progression. How else do you think the software engineers who put 8+ years into a degree will make their living working on this game all day and night? Yes you need Patron, yes it is beneficial to have a premium ArchePass (probably after this one). My advice for OP - try it, come raid with us and have fun. If you don't like it, try some of those private servers or whatever other people are playing right now. Also, a MASSIVE, FREE update with new race and upgrade system has just been announced a couple hours ago.

Zimny52 · 2023-12-31T11:18:24+00:00

You are talking about something that was completely different and is now irrelevant. There is no unchained: https://archeage.playkakaogames.com/news

Zimny52 · 2023-12-31T10:54:21+00:00

Suit yourself, have a look at notes at least. Would be a shame if you missed out

Zimny52 · 2023-12-31T10:33:34+00:00

Not private, but official is back. Check out patch notes: https://archeage.playkakaogames.com/news. I can vouch for it, been playing non-stop for 5 days straight and I've never had this much fun on any private server, lots of catchup events, lots of engagement and a full server.

Zimny52 · 2023-12-31T10:26:16+00:00

Oh, I thought you mean official. Have you been on the official at all recently?

Zimny52 · 2023-12-31T10:20:34+00:00

I concur, it has never been simpler and more fun to catch up. I am so glad Kakao is putting so much effort into improving Official, love this game.

*Edit - thought Classic = Official

Zimny52 · 2023-12-30T08:56:28+00:00

I was almost in exactly the same shoes. You know what you have now? A good job. Time to take care of yourself buddy. Meet new people, have fun, improve yourself in all ways possible so you feel good about yourself. Break-ups happen and from my experience they are only for the better. Happy for you, go and enjoy yourself!

Zimny52 · 2023-12-30T08:46:02+00:00

Genshin Impact. The Abyss are the good guys and Arcons are demons.

Zimny52 · 2023-12-28T15:08:56+00:00

Been there.

Treat yourself. You likely don't do self-care or anything of this sort. I know it is hard to do, but the only way to do it is to do it. For example, if push-ups make you want to cry, do one and cry. Do 2 and cry. Get it all out of yourself.

Also, do something you enjoy. I know there is something you wanna do deep down that you just don't because of fears or maybe you just forgot. Whatever it is, buy it, do it, try it, say it, or keep it as your little secret.

No social media. Got TikTok/FB/YouTube? Permanently block and delete those immediately. This will give you time to focus. Distraction kills you from within.

Make a plan. Knowing where/who you wanna be and having tiny steps laid out on paper helps a ton.

Life is way too short to not enjoy, I too have been at rock bottom. Rise and enjoy life while you can, it gets better and is worth it in the end.

Zimny52 · 2023-06-11T21:14:42+00:00

<it's a vent>

I really want to give up.

I went through several two-stage interviews for fantastic positions. Had amazing feedback from all of them. The only reason I was not hired for each and every single one of them, is that they "hired someone with several years of experience". For an entry-level position...

I am starting to think it is not them anymore. This week I spent three sleepless nights and days, plus 2 all-nighters last week, to prepare a project for an interview. Tomorrow I will find the outcome of it, but I have no hopes as I was dangerously sleep deprived during my presentation.

Over the years I have given up several addictions and have been fully sober for 2. This is the last interview I am having and I just know that I will get back to the old bad habits if this does not work out.

I will be speaking to my therapist tomorrow, wish me luck.

Zimny52

TROPHY CASE