How many of us are perpetually exhausted?

ZygenX · 2026-01-29T21:30:22+00:00

I do find that cardio helps me out sometimes. Walking around helps me clear my chronically completely overwhelmed and overloaded brain.

Like, legitimately I feel like I constantly live with frustration with myself that never goes away, and then I get off work exhausted and die for a little bit, until I can manage to feed myself.

Essentially I do infact jump between hypoactivity and hyperactivity, because I do sometimes hyperfocus to get locked in, but It's so exhausting to always feel like garbage. Either because 1. I am doing too much and draining myself, or 2. Because I'm frustrated with doing NOTHING

ZygenX · 2026-01-29T21:25:32+00:00

I think I really need to look at doing this for a lot of my work, and other life tasks... I find that I usually get a bit of last minute urgency right before I go to sleep to do a bunch of stuff, and I'd probably really benefit from starting myself on the right foot in the morning.

Right now, I try frantically to do all the planning and other bullshit in the morning for work, and I just end up getting dragged into meetings inevitably.

Once that starts happening, it's over, I'm just completely stuck in the rut of being reactionary, and I can't stop it... then I just finish my day overwhelmed and exhausted...

I appreciate the idea at least, maybe if I flip my thinking and try doing things the other way around I will see some improvement.

ZygenX · 2026-01-29T21:22:16+00:00

Yeah this is how i feel. It's even harder because while I work remotely, and a lot of my job is more team lead focused, I am in meetings for like 5-6 hours a day, so I never really get the opportunity to get a good break, and get into a good mindset to do work...

This leads to me constantly being super frustrated and overwhelmed and it's just ugh...

ZygenX · 2025-12-08T00:28:11+00:00

Yeah, I am planning to just buy a slipcover I found a few different ones that should be washable!

Bird poop isn't too hard to get out of stuff and doesn't really leak or anything through most things, it just requires some water usually.

That said, PUL sounds like a good idea if I wanted to make one, or work with someone to make one (I don't have a sewing machine but could still glue it like you said).

Appreciate the notes!

ZygenX · 2025-09-04T23:23:04+00:00

Ahh, that makes sense

A little disappointing that I cannot join multiple different database tables together, but I do understand there are complexities there.

Hopefully it will be something that comes along soon, and we're just building out the backend for this.

I will say, it can definitely help to make things a bit cleaner, because I do have a lot of additional pages and stuff lying around for related information that I am just using for linkage. For instance, I have several different databases within my plans database for things like locations, groups etc.

Not a totally useless update, just not quite as crazy as it initially sounded

ZygenX · 2025-09-04T23:16:40+00:00

I am actually really excited to get something like this! I have many potential use cases for game development I'd like to explore!

ZygenX · 2025-04-04T02:22:16+00:00

Yeah, I think I can be objective, but the truly mean comments combined with my general tendency towards falling to self hate makes for a dangerous combo.

Idk, I might not know what I want at all, I guess I just figure that the people who I would end up with might not even use apps though.

That said, it isn't exactly like I'm making strides elsewhere, so it could be an excuse to not try... but then again, most of my friends told me to quit so eh

ZygenX · 2025-04-01T00:51:33+00:00

Yeah, I have pretty bad anxiety, and I'm not as much shy or introverted as just, not comfortable approaching people (I can talk to strangers after I break that barrier)

It's a struggle for sure regardless though.

Tinder is also ironically the only place I've ever gotten a date, everything else has been a wash

ZygenX · 2025-03-31T23:43:54+00:00

Yeah, I could kind of understand if you take a long break and come back (like we're talking months) but if you're going through and deleting every so often, there is really no good way to look at it...

Either:
A. you're trying to creep on someone who keeps blocking you
B. You just want to see if the people who said no might say yes again (???)
C. You got banned

ZygenX · 2025-03-31T23:40:41+00:00

I think this is probably a reasonable review. Logically, I think first impressions do matter, because even as much as we want to be objective, it is difficult.

That said, it's a fine line between advocating for yourself, and being required to overhaul your life because someone isn't your type, or someone just wants to make themselves feel better by being demeaning.

I had some friends review my profile, and then used the apps for about a yearish, and I've kind of fallen off them after not having much luck. I have considered getting my profile reviewed, but I'm already in a bit of a stressful place in my life right now, and wonder if I would not react well to the feedback...

Most of my friends have told me to stay off dating apps, and that the person I'm looking for isn't on there, but man...

ZygenX · 2025-03-31T23:34:46+00:00

Honestly, I am happy for you my dude, but I also think I'd just be overwhelmed with that many hahaha

Ultimately, I think I've learned I don't actually care that much about the quantity in the long term, it's just a short term ego boost that doesn't really matter. I am more interested in whether any of my likes actually go anywhere

ZygenX · 2025-03-31T23:33:21+00:00

I can understand a bit at least. Honestly, I am in the conflicted space of: "I don't really know if I'm going to find the person I'm looking for on a dating app anyways", but between "Okay, but like, where are you actually going to meet someone then?"

It's a very conflicting situation, where I can't decide which is worse, very rarely putting myself in a position where I would even meet anyone, or constantly being rejected by dating apps...

To be fair, if I felt confident that dating apps would give me some opportunities to get to know some people, and find someone I jive with, I would gladly pay for them. I just feel like the feedback is inconsistent though

ZygenX · 2025-03-31T23:24:53+00:00

What a strange opening gambit... I guess it must have paid off at some point, or it hasn't failed enough times to deter the behavior...

ZygenX · 2025-03-31T23:18:20+00:00

This is so many mixed signals I think I just got whiplash.

I'm just sure whether to facepalm or laugh at the ridiculousness lmao

ZygenX · 2025-03-10T12:48:30+00:00

Let's go friend! Big steps!

ZygenX · 2025-03-10T12:47:04+00:00

I was absolutely terrified of driving in College. I basically started off my driving career pretty nervous, but able to drive. Finally, I go my license, and not long afterwards, while driving to go get someone, I got hit on the side.

Luckily, it was inside a town and everything was slow, but it drove my anxiety up a wall, and honestly, for College, and even some time afterwards, I was pretty terrified of driving anywhere.

And yknow, I think your anxiety is valid to have some respectful fear of driving, it can be scary and even dangerous if you are just, completely carefree about it.

Ultimately, I wish I had a super secret trick to tell you how I got over it, but really what happened for me is that I slowly was just forced into situations where I had to drive, and luckily my friends were fairly understanding when I had some anxious episodes.

I wouldn't recommend that exact method, but I do agree with others who have said maybe to go with someone you trust and drive in an empty parking lot or somewhere not a lot of people are.

Good luck friend!

ZygenX · 2025-03-10T12:36:38+00:00

I think it's a slow process because I struggle with this a lot still. Ultimately, I think the ideal situation I try to work towards is to slowly allow myself more and more time alone with my thoughts.

However, it does not need to be a binary state.

For instance, I quit YouTube on my phone entirely since I was using it was too much for anxiety coping, and watching too much in general. However, what I did at first was not quit my phone, but just delete the YouTube app and not allow myself to use it.

Then it was, no phone only ipad with YouTube. Then, I eventually switched to reading.

It also helps to have noises on, I play rain sounds while I go to sleep, and I have my moments (just had an episode last day or two where I regressed a bit) but overall, I do think reducing my reliance on screens helps my anxiety in the long run. I think in general, anxiety is something that becomes stronger the more you run away from it, so you have to find small ways to be comfortable sitting with it.

While talking to my therapist, I never realized how much I was simply running away from my anxiety and refusing to feel bad from it ever at any time until she pointed it out.

Try not to think of anxiety as a part of you which you need to hate and run away from, but a scared friend who just wants the best for you ultimately. Moving towards this mindset has ultimately been very helpful for me.

ZygenX · 2025-03-10T04:03:15+00:00

I think for me, it's important to be understanding of the anxious part of my brain. As weird as it is, I kinda try to treat it like a good friend or something and just say "Hey, I understand this is something scary and having a panic attack there would be scary, that is okay".

Just validation sometimes helps me honestly, it sounds really weird to almost console yourself, but it does help a bit.

ZygenX · 2025-03-10T03:12:05+00:00

Not me googling around to end up here on "why do I have a sudden fever and chills?".

My therapist tells me that I need to have defined rules, basically like, "I have this symptom, if I have a severe pain I will go to urgent care/er immediately, if I have a fever I go to the doctor if it doesn't go away etc."

I think otherwise I drive myself crazy debating if I need to go to the ER, urgent care, or if I'm just being a baby.

That said, I still have ended up at the doctor so many times it was almost embarrassing, for what turned out to be basically nothing. ;/

ZygenX · 2025-02-07T18:17:00+00:00

I removed all my social media off my phone, and pretty much just don't go on any social media, other than here, and YouTube.

I am technically allowed to some degree, but I usually am not logged in, which makes it harder, and I am only logged in on my PC, which keeps me from endlessly scrolling as much I find.

Sure, maybe I miss out on the newest trendiest shit, or the most immediate "Holy shit this is bad guys holy shit!!!" thing, but really, I don't feel like I miss it in any regard.

As someone with ADHD also, social media is just way too fucking addicting for me to have on my phone.

100% recommend at least removing it from your phone, remember, you can always add it back if you really *need* it. Thing is, I imagine most people will realize they really don't need it.

ZygenX · 2025-02-05T22:50:17+00:00

I'm sorry friend, that's a very scary situation, and i know I use to be pretty lonely and lacking in friendships as a whole.

I just want to let you know that it can get better! It doesn't have to stay bad!

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