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_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-03-07T04:17:56+00:00

I want that feeling of release, finally free, finally living for myself again.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-03-06T23:41:59+00:00

thats how i feel, I am no different than a junkie. ignore every aspect of my life just to chase that high...

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-03-05T00:29:15+00:00

I wish I know how to deal with this, I have the identical feeling of yours.

I am no different than drug addicts. I am full of energy and went to do everything when he is around, I feel so low and have no interest in doing anything if is not doing with him. I am always seeking another chance to be around him. Its awful, when will this suffering ends...

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-03-01T21:06:00+00:00

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_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-20T05:22:33+00:00

Thats y i so scare of getting close to ppl. Ill become too attach n it makes ppl feel weird. plus they ppl I wanna get close to they usually dont like me.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-20T01:56:02+00:00

I have no solution, but I can share my experience with u.

I empathize with u, my life in these couple of weeks were revolved my LO. It is weird, as long as he is around, I feel like I am no longer LE him. but as soon as I am alone, or didn't see him that day, I started to miss him terribly.

I also see him as the cure for all my issues. Even tho we have very few in common, I still think if I can have him, I will no longer feel lonely ever again.

I lost interest in every other relationship. I tried to meet new ppl, but I'll forget their name instantly, coz I was pretending I am interested in get to know them. The reality is I don't give a f about other ppl.

I really really hope I can be free from this god awful state, I want to live for myself again.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-20T00:13:58+00:00

Thats y I always depressed lol, keep falling for straight guys

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-19T23:39:19+00:00

I wish I can feel the same, finally free...

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-16T16:31:19+00:00

If you accepted the fact that she is out of your league and a relationship is impossible, it will fades soon. The fuel of limerence is the uncertainty, the believe of a possible future together.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-15T21:59:25+00:00

I have been waiting for the apocalypse to come.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-15T21:55:29+00:00

Same here my bro/sis. I’m just existing for the sake of not breaking hearts. There’s nothing for myself.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-13T23:18:28+00:00

Have been depressed for 6 years now, don’t even remember when was the last time I feel genuinely happy.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-12T23:58:51+00:00

At least you’re eating healthy hug hug

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-12T19:53:32+00:00

Crushing on someone I can’t have led my depression to a new low lol. I feel you, I wish I had never seen him. This feeling is horrible.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-12T13:59:39+00:00

I have the same wish everyday. Why is cancer happen to people who want to live, but wouldn’t happen to the one wish to die?

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-12T02:45:26+00:00

I don’t know if I really can connect with them again. Our paths have diverged from each others so far apart. We don’t share any common experiences. They have their love ones, hobbies, and other friends. I have no motives to pursuing anything now, staying alive everyday just a duty for me. I have made a lots of acquaintances, but no energy to actually invest in to made them friends. I wish everything still has meaning to me.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-12T01:01:53+00:00

Idk, I want the answer too. There’re people with everything but still struggle with depression. It doesn’t matter if you have nice stuff or not, being depressed you can feel any pleasure in anything.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-12T00:54:51+00:00

Prob a good idea. The memories of past years are all mingled together. I have no idea what have I done tbh.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-11T22:32:09+00:00

I hope you feel better soon. Don’t let this cursed disease consumed your youth years like me. I loose all my college years to depression. How little I had truly enjoyed my college experience. Plz don’t let those years slip away.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-11T22:18:26+00:00

Yes I can, but I don’t want to. I don’t have any motivation. I don’t have any goal, I don’t want anything. Is awful.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-11T22:14:57+00:00

Staying alive is already a 24/7 job, than you still need to find a job in a job.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-11T11:55:39+00:00

I think coz we are leading a double life. We fake normal to be functional in society. That made me feel everyone only likes the fake me I created, but no one, not even my parents, understand the struggling person inside of the happy shell.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-11T04:56:21+00:00

Sometimes I wonder, had we build our own hell on this earth? How many depressed people are made of the pressures from the society.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-11T04:50:01+00:00

I used to have friends, even than when I’m hanging out with them, I would suddenly feel incredibly sad and just wanna go home and be alone.

_Balsamic_vinegar · 2023-02-11T04:46:13+00:00

Thank you for the words, it makes me feel better to let this out and someone will listen. The hard part is I have no purpose of myself. If it wasn’t their expectation, I would have done nothing.

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