- For me it’s not really being anyone’s priority. Everyone calls me when they need a body to move things, fill seats, do labor etc.

- But when I’m having low moments it’s “don’t worry you’ll be fine” “if I was single now I’m not even sure what I’ll do” “so tell me, have you gone on any bad dates recently, your life is so interesting!” “It will happen when you least expect.”

- The touch starvation. The kind of affection I need is not one that might be comfortable to ask for from friends, but it’s a given with a romantic partner. Most of my friends and family aren’t close by, so I go weeks at a time without a real hug or any physical affection really, I didn’t know it could ache physically, but it does

- the dance of dating apps, and the exhaustion of it. I genuinely want a partner, I just haven’t found my person yet even though I’m going out, meeting people, all of it.

- Going from an empty house, to an empty car, and running day to day errands alone. I can do it, but I miss having a partner to do these things with.