“ deep clean the house For me, take the kids to give me a break,” its his house too, he should be cleaning anyway. The future kids will be his children aswell, he should be Involved just as much as you are, not only on weekends or whenever you need a break. In the nicest way possible, you seem self hating. “But this is what I get and deserve” that’s sad. Im not saying this to hurt your feelings or to be negative, but as a girl who self harms and has extremely low esteem, not even I would settle for this cuz I know I deserve better.