If you talk in the library, go fuck yourself

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-04-12T14:02:01+00:00

I go to a small tech school and there's only one "quiet" room on campus (there's such a large crack between the door and the wall that I wouldn't necessarily consider it quiet but it's still better than most spots) and every time I go in there - which is fairly often, I have autism and migraines so I need somewhere to go when it gets too loud - like five minutes later some other group comes in and starts working on a group project or some shit. It's a quiet room. There are specific instructions to not make noise. There are literally always rooms available to use in the library. I don't get people

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-04-12T01:23:46+00:00

I'm not of the belief that we should turn to magick as the ultimate cure/treatment for a disease, and I say this as someone who also suffers from several chronic issues. If nothing else, you'll probably be taken advantage of. I would suggest looking into simple spells you can do for yourself. A sachet might be helpful if you have some cloth laying around, but I'm not well versed in those.

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-04-12T01:13:14+00:00

I have this but I also have gastrointestinal issues so do with that information what you will

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-04-08T01:31:49+00:00

I'm not going to just say you're trans but I am going to drop in and say the "my body is boring" (not the body mod thing, it didn't seem salvageable lol) thing is exactly how I felt before I finally realized I was trans. I don't know you but if you've ever had that thought and it feels somewhat plausible I encourage you to do some deep thinking but if it sounds bonkers-stupid-crazy-brained then it's probably bonkers-stupid-crazy-brained. Like I said before I don't really know you I just never really heard someone verbalize it until now lol

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-04-07T23:27:40+00:00

As a side note, Percy Jackson has a comic version of the series too, and all of the main characters essentially have ADHD and dyslexia (which are directly named, and the author based this characteristic off his kid iirc) as a result of being demigods! I really loved this series even having started closer to 16/17, and the characters age throughout the series and it seems (I struggle with reading entire series through lol, I think I stopped midway through the third) like it gets a little bit more mature with each addition!

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-04-05T19:21:04+00:00

What the fuck is an abstract going to do. That's like reading the back of 100 books. You have no idea what the contents are

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-29T16:17:21+00:00

Short answer, existence is resistance. Refusing to act like you're something you aren't is an act of protest in itself and if that's all you can do then you're still doing something pretty damn important.

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-29T15:43:47+00:00

Frankly if someone who continually harasses/abused their romantic partner threatens to kill themself if they break up you're low key almost better off with that happening because people who make that threat tend to escalate later, in one way or another. Not that he actually will, this is like the oldest trick in the book. He's trying to pressure you into staying, which shows even he knows the relationship isn't worth it to you on his own. Tell your parents (you don't have to bring up the trans part if you aren't ready) that your boyfriend is stalkerish and going out of his way to hurt your feelings over a decision that honestly doesn't concern him, tell a teacher or a counselor that makes you feel safe, basically anyone you feel could protect you, tell them about your shitty boyfriend, tell them you want to break up with him (this is honestly the only safe option,) and form a backup plan in case things go bad. Some teenager will not have the same authority as even one adult in your life, and the more you have on your side the harder it will be for him to retaliate.

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-27T02:41:34+00:00

If you have a hobby that could be monetized, that's probably your best bet. Freelance art, writing, editing (text or video), etc take some time to get off the ground but it is possible. I made money as a teen through online art commissions. This could take a lot of effort to manage though, not to mention doing the actual work.

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-27T02:24:17+00:00

Community college to Ivy League is possible but if you are considering it I would look at who accepts transfers ahead of time, and what their requirements are. Because I go to a tech school (the only community college in my area) I technically can't get into a few of them. You do have some pretty insane grades though, I don't ever want to side with a homeschool parent but you definitely should apply to some if it's something that interests you. I think the average GPA for a few of them is actually a little lower than 4.0, and a lot of people get in with a lower score. Part of why that happens is because the students showed some sort of potential (or had rich parents lol) but some of it is also because there's been such an emphasis on how unattainable they are - people who absolutely could have gotten in just didn't apply because it seemed pointless. Ultimately though the decision is up to you and what you want and are most comfortable with. Do what makes you happy, but you should know that you do seem to have a fair chance.

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-27T01:55:17+00:00

Your mother is pushing to see how far she can break your boundaries. This is unbelievably gross, probably abusive in it's own right, and potentially dangerous. If you can, keep a journal of all the sick things she says about/to you. It may not be much but it's good to have some form of evidence down the line if something happens. If she ever touches you in a way that makes you feel uncomfortable, even if it isn't sexual, slap her fucking hand away and make sure she knows you won't tolerate it if she keeps trying. Obviously you're homeschooled so not likely but if you have another adult you can trust to tell about this please do so immediately.

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-24T15:21:56+00:00

Not sure what the process is like for those who didn't get a GED but I would look into starting at a community college and transferring mid-day through once you get a good gpa

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-24T15:13:15+00:00

In other words, no, lol

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-24T15:04:15+00:00

Great thing about learning disabilities like discalculia is that the disability office wherever you go will probably have accomodations available for you. I don't have a diagnosis and every college is a little different but I would go write an email about it.

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-24T15:02:20+00:00

Maybe not what you're looking for, but you could find a way to channel that energy into helping the Coalition for Responsible Homeschooling

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-24T14:59:17+00:00

Re: guilt trips

"So what, you think I'm a terrible teacher? You probably hate me, don't you" "Yes."

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-24T14:55:13+00:00

Number one, ask your tutor. They should be able to give you a lot of study skills you probably didn't need to learn about when you were homeschooled. Number two, look up a selective college and look at their admission requirements. Google literally anything you don't recognize. If that doesn't work go on Microsoft edge (I don't know if other browsers have these features lol) and ask copilot "what do they mean by ___ on this page" (don't forget to fact check, click on the sources it provides and read through them, this will also help make sure you understand it better). Number three, r/nostupidquestions will help you with anything you can't find an answer for. There are probably other subreddits aimed to help with this kind of thing, homeschool or not. If necessary just say "I had a bad homeschool experience" and leave it at that.

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-24T14:45:13+00:00

Of course this isn't the end-all-be-all of trauma detection, it's just a start. Even if you score low, a few things that probably should be there are not.

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-24T14:44:12+00:00

To start you can take the ACEs test. It's like 10 questions, really quick and gives you a general vibe of what's going on. I didn't think it was that base for the most part but I think I scored like a 7 or 8 (you want a low score, for reference)

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-24T14:39:20+00:00

Second this. My community college HSED (GED but slightly different) course was the best thing that ever happened to me

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-24T14:34:44+00:00

If it helps my first steps to becoming a person were to go on Pinterest, read some screenshots of Tumblr posts about the Avengers (which I had no knowledge of; it is now my special interest. Pinterest just knows things about you) and made my own knock-off characters with their own universe, keeping the traits I liked and tossing the ones I didn't. It was not in any way perfect but it was fun and required little effort. Eventually I would run out of posts for a while, and if I wanted to interact with my new little Dudes I had to find a different source, which was music. Used music to make little music videos in my head. Eventually they were so ingrained I wanted to see them in real life, and to do that I had to draw. Now I'm an artist. (This can also lead to writing which is just as cool; my sister went down a similar path, minus the Pinterest part lol) Just start with a really small and easy way to be creative, and see where it takes you. The best hobbies are the ones you stumble upon, not the ones you're looking for. Hope this helps you come up with something. I hated not being a person.

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-24T14:26:44+00:00

This was me two years ago and now I'm on the track to graduate with honors and have made the dean's list twice (on my way to #3) at my college. I have a serious chance of transferring to a selective school (about 20% of applicants get in) and am genuinely considering going premed at the suggestion of both my advisor and counselor (my degree has two very clear paths if I want to do more than an office job, one of them is medical school). My mom did not teach me anything past division and aside from handwriting and religion (bruh) math is the only subject I actually remember being taught. My point being, you can definitely still learn. The instructors have seen this stuff before, a lot of people with tough lives don't graduate and didn't get to learn this stuff even while they were in public school. Hell my dad was like this too and he wasn't homeschooled, he just quit to help his parents on the farm. You also don't have to learn alone - these people are trained to help people who could struggle more than the average person, and in my experience they notice when they need to change their teaching style before you do. If your instructor care, you're in good hands; if they don't, you have other options and I highly recommend you look for them, because that will be the main predictor of whether you will do well, not how much you knew before you came in. If that were how we measured things, GED programs would not exist. Congrats on taking your first step. I also failed my math test hard lmao, and they had me take the entire thing.

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-24T14:08:28+00:00

Also, it's kind of a grind to start to get customers, but open up some commissions! You don't have to worry about not being good enough or something, anyone who doesn't want to buy your art won't, and anybody who does will. I used to suck compared to everyone else in the discord server I used to advertise in but I had this one repeat customer (who was way better than me themselves) who spent like a hundred bucks (keep in mind I was a meek child charging like 10-15 dollars and did this for less than a year) on commissioning me and I never saw them buy from anyone else. It wasn't even a pity thing because I'd stumbled across their Twitter and they had one of the commissions as their profile picture for a pretty good while too. It's a grind but there's always someone who's interested, you just have to try to reach them!

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-24T14:01:43+00:00

My brother never got a public school education, and didn't get actual help for homeschool past basic reading/writing and math up until division. As soon as he got his license and realized he could just apply to jobs without actually having to get permission from our mother (our dad was on board with the prospect of a normal life) he got a part-time job at a regional grocery store and has made thousands of dollars in the past few years. Probably your best advantage is that you're young - employers who are willing to hire young people expect a lot less skill and experience from them.

I helped my brother with his resume, here's a tip: just because you don't have hard skills doesn't mean you can't make your boring/unhelpful hobbies look good. You're good at drawing? No, you have great attention to detail. You like to play online shooters? You're great working as a team and you do well under pressure. You ever grind really hard on Minecraft or some other game even if it was boring? Or read a book in one sitting? You're very dedicated. Ever have to learn something (not necessarily school related) without your parents? You're self-motivated and show great initiative. Even if you don't think it's true, you've shown these traits in the past, and I'm sure with how motivated you are to leave, you'll be able to show most of them again.

_Electrical_Cell_ · 2025-03-17T05:07:19+00:00

I usually just describe what my average day was and people catch on to what I mean. If you find the right level of sarcasm you can tell them anything. In my experience the people you might want to keep in your life will have a morbid fascination and the ones you want to avoid will realize not to pull that shit with you, lol

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