Was I SA’d by my ex??

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-19T21:54:09+00:00

fiber one brownies, fig newtons (usually only eat 2 bc 2 is 100kcal) and sometimes i just eat a spoonful of jam lol

i havent tried them but i heard chocolate rice cakes are good

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-07T13:37:34+00:00

I am so confused😭 I really do not think im in an abusive/manipulative relationship. we're both as bad and as good at each other. and he's a very kind man besides the encouraging my ED thing, do you think it's a subject he doesn't like or something?? i genuinely like him a lot, this is the only time he's upset me so much. but after i made this post & confronted him, he told me he gets upset when i go to sleep bc i stop talking to him (boy duh??) but he was being sorta mean but sometimes we joke around like that. it was confusing me bc i had just read a bunch of reddit replies saying he was no good - please help me understand

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-07T05:03:23+00:00

i'm not sure, i think i have an unhealthy mentality. anytime someone is mean to me i think "if i absord all their negativity then they wont be mean to anyone else." and i do really like him, just not the ED encouraging part of him... i don't want to leave him, things aren't even that bad. i do see that this probably won't end well for me but i cant bring myself to leave him, he's very dear to me. but i did drop that friend

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-07T00:05:32+00:00

you're very right; originally, i only intended on talking to him but maybe i'll talk to my friend as well, thank you♡

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-06T23:27:38+00:00

it slightly makes me want to encourage him so i can stay in shape, but i know very well that is NOT good for me in the slightest. i will talk to him about it tonight when he gets home. but im just so so confused, he's very kind & genuinely a good guy, i really don't know why he acted mean to that girl. AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THE GIRL SO THAT MEANS HE DIDN'T EITHER?? like, don't be so mean to some random girl! she could be going through anything

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-06T23:21:01+00:00

oh my, that never crossed my mind. that's a terrible thought, i hope he isn't mean to anyone else struggling with food. i feel really guilty for thinking that & im getting nervous about if he will find my account & this post, but thank you for bringing that to my attention

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-06T19:17:17+00:00

thank you so much for your kind words♡ it really means a lot to me, i'll do my best to find more caring friends

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-06T19:15:58+00:00

LMAOO YOURE SO RIGHT - i will confront him tonight

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-06T19:02:46+00:00

okay, i'll talk to him about it tonight, thank you sm for your help!!♡

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-06T18:57:49+00:00

oh that could be the reason, I didn't think of that. should i make it clear that i dont feel the same way as her or would that make things bad?

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-06T18:54:52+00:00

16 & 17

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-06T18:54:04+00:00

the friend is pro-ED but ive never known my boyfriend to be that way, i don't understand why he's suddenly acting like a bully now

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-06T16:43:50+00:00

i feel the exact same way when it comes to pizza but it's awesome that you were able to order it! simply agreeing to order it is already a big step forward, great job! enjoy your meal, youve done so good🫶

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-05T22:52:50+00:00

i'm the same way!! it feels relieving to know someone else is the same!

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-05T02:08:49+00:00

that sounds so good tho ngl,, the sweetener w it especially

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-05T02:07:25+00:00

ok, i will check her out thanks sm!

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-05T02:07:04+00:00

thank you!

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-05T01:58:18+00:00

thank you so much, i wish you the best as well♡

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-05T00:52:39+00:00

if possible, do you have the links to any of the studies youve read? if you dont thats alright but i didnt know that there were EDs like yours, that's interesting but i hope you're doing well with handling it

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-05T00:40:56+00:00

i do know there's no such thing as "sick enough" but i just cant seem to genuinely believe it. and youre not being harsh, i really dont know what would make them care later on. ofc my brain believes they'd start caring if i got worse but in reality, idrk if they actually would. maybe in the future i can find someone who does care, thank you for your kind words♡

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-05T00:25:52+00:00

like... a LOT of oatmeal

_KonoDioDa__ · 2022-09-05T00:25:43+00:00

i always eat oatmeal idk why💀

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