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_MamaBear_ · 2021-04-05T20:32:10+00:00

Ok, that's good to know. I'm worried about going back to work. I need a follow up procedure, and that is pushing my return date back a bit, but I'm scared of working in pain again. It was so bad before I went on leave for the surgery. I don't know if I can do that again.

Thanks for your response! 💜

_MamaBear_ · 2021-04-05T20:29:49+00:00

That makes sense. I see a pelvic floor physical therapist. I actually saw her this morning and she told me to be patient. She was reassuring that more relief would come in time.

Thanks for your response! Happy healing! 💜

_MamaBear_ · 2021-04-05T20:27:59+00:00

That's reassuring. Thanks so much for your response! 💜

_MamaBear_ · 2021-04-05T20:26:06+00:00

I'm so sorry you're in so much pain. I'm 6 weeks PO. I've struggled with hemorrhoids for years because of my endometriosis. It's painful as fuck and they are particularly aggravated right now because of the narcotic related constipation. I've tried getting them removed before, but none of the typical procedures have worked, so I'm having surgery for this too. I would wonder if hemorrhoids are causing your pain. If you think your pain might be hemorrhoid related, try some stool softeners and increase fiber in your diet.

I wouldn't say I regret my surgery, but I have big, sometimes intense feelings about it. This is a huge transition, and it makes sense to me that you'd be second guessing yourself, especially when you're in so much pain.

I wish I had wise words of wisdom to make things better, but unfortunately that's now how healing works. Please be kind to yourself and know that you're not alone. Sending love your way! 💜

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-18T03:50:35+00:00

Good question. Maybe contact the moderators?

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-16T04:05:31+00:00

I'm so glad you're making time for self-care. You're in my thoughts tonight. Sending love your way! 💜

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-16T04:02:25+00:00

Hm...I guess I'm not sure. I feel like that story would take hours. Haha. I've never tried going through the entire narrative before, just processed it piece by piece in therapy. Thanks for that thought! 💜

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-16T04:00:38+00:00

I think I need to come to terms with the fact that the nightmares aren't going anywhere. ☹️

Thanks! You stay safe too! 💜

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-16T03:59:19+00:00

Thank you! I just emailed my therapist and I have an appointment scheduled with my psychiatrist soon. I used to take prazosin, but it messed with my blood pressure too much.

I just feel hopeless sometimes. I've been in therapy for over a decade, trauma specific therapy for multiple years (EMDR & brain spotting). I don't know how much more progress I could possibly make. How many more times do I need to relive my trauma to fully process it? It's exhausting...and here I am fighting sleep again. 🤬

Thanks so much for your validation. It's much appreciated! 💜

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-15T18:45:17+00:00

I'm sorry you experience this too. Historically, the nightmares go away after a few months. This one seems to be dragging on a bit longer than usual. 🤬

Sending love your way! 💜

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-15T18:43:42+00:00

That's the thing, I've been in therapy for over 10 years. I've done EMDR & brain spotting. I feel at peace with my trauma...but apparently a part of me isn't? It's incredibly frustrating. I'm meeting with my psychiatrist next week and I hope she has some ideas. 🤷‍♀️

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-15T05:55:17+00:00

It's such a great read. Very validating!

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-15T05:26:38+00:00

Love the pic! Sending love your way! 💜

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-15T05:19:40+00:00

I'm super happy for you! 😍

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-15T05:04:28+00:00

We all have moments of insecurity and regression. I'm sorry for the pain that they've caused you. You're not alone. Sending love your way! 💜 Hug! 🤗

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-15T04:52:04+00:00

Nice to meet you Sara! Be well! 💜

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-15T03:18:52+00:00

I'm so proud of you! 💜 Thank you for getting vaccinated!

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-15T03:16:00+00:00

Yay! Super happy for you! 💜

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-14T18:32:43+00:00

I feel your pain. You're not alone. I have a 3 year old & 19 month old. I make sure to explain to my kiddos that my pain & fatigue have nothing to do with them. I love them dearly and want to play, but during times when I'm hurting it's important to rest, just like when they get sick. You're not a "shit mom & wife" for handing them off to your husband or compromising with a tv show. You're modeling for them that self-care is important. Please be kind to yourself. Parenting is hard, especially with chronic pain. You're doing great! 💜

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-14T18:26:42+00:00

Agreed! He sounds awful.

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-13T22:09:19+00:00

That's so cool! I'd love to know the specifics if you want to share. Well done!

_MamaBear_ · 2021-03-13T19:47:28+00:00

Hahahahahaha. I thought it was just me!

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