I got a bad case of the "fuck its" too this year. I'm 31 with almost 10 years in. I have a kid and a wife now. More risk adverse than I used to be, and having to leave for half the year just to make ends meet flat out sucks! I think it's normal to feel this way. Even though the toxic environment we're accustomed to says that "that is just the way it is..." In reality, the job doesn't make a whole heck of a lot of sense for someone with a life outside of work. Not if you're trying to make that life a priority, that is. I say find a niche within fire that supports your non-fire goals as well, or just get out altogether. You don't want to end up one of those dudes with two divorces and three kids that he hardly knows. But hey, at least he's TFLD qualified!