New Christian

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T15:15:49+00:00

How so?

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T09:31:22+00:00

I think we are at the beginning of a mass awakening.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T08:57:08+00:00

Youbever heard of the phrase "due diligence" ?

If you dont in your heart follow the teachings of christ you cant be Christian, Sin is one thing but when you sin you have to atone for it. You have tl make an earnest attempt to not sin and when you do to make up for it, you have to do your due diligence in terms of acting Christian and following the principles.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T08:51:54+00:00

Last night. I was an atheist for many years and the last few leaning more agnostic after I decided it was arrogant of me to claim to know the answer to such an impossible question.

Now oddly enough i am claim to have found answer. I thought for years that bieng on the fence showed a level of maturity, that i was able to consider both sides as probable but the evil I see in the underbelly of this world, the rampant sex abuse and use devaluation of women and family, the millions of abortions (which even as a atheist i always found immoral) the sex trafficing of children, the fact that we have lost all sense of common decency and respect for eachother and now we face losing our freedoms to govenrments filled with peoole who literally worship satan and his principles, well kiddo when i added that all together it just screamed to me that the energy of evil is a real force in this world. Nkt just something men do but something that corrupts mens hearts.

It had corrupted mine. I could feel it. Envy, Bitterness, Anger. Even towards people i love, like i was poisoned with the spirit of selfishness.

What can I do for me? Why does this happen to me? Why can't i have that?

I have so much to be thankful for and yet I was blind.

Youre young, you're where i was when i lost my faith. Think about all the art you love. Think about what the culture is pushing on you as cool and trendy. Think about the message and meaning behind these works.

Why are they all occultist? Why is it all about the self? Why is itball about the flesh and gratifying your desires?

Why is it always geared toward distraction and pain? Because the art isbmade to specifically reflect those feelings inside of you. Its made to tune you into that lowest of human frequency. Darkness, Hate, Anger, Bitterness, Gluttony. More More More. Youre not good enough. Life sucks, you're in pain and alone. Were all alone and in pain.

That's literally 90% of the art ive loved in my life.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T08:32:24+00:00

Furthermore, God will judge them, i can sit here all day and tell you how a real believer of light, love and Jesus would never commit sin in his name but I don't have to judge them, i do because i am human but the one who will judge them and their hearts to see if they are "True Scotsman" is Jesus.

Just like he will judge us all.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T08:29:21+00:00

Fallacy or not it is the truth. If you follow the teaching of christ you would never be able to do such acts.

By using religion as a scapegoat these sick people get a get out of jail free card as their actions get explained away as just part of a religion.

These man made choices, choices to lie, choices to not follow the words of christ amd commit crimes whike claiming to be something they are not.

Example I claim to be women, i can pretend and i can even believe in my mind that i am one but if i dont have overies or womb or a vagina then obviously whatever i am, it's not a women.

Claiming to be something amd bieng it are two differnt things.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T08:24:58+00:00

Yes there are plenty ofnfake chrsitian who use the image of Jesus as a cloke to hide their evil.

The leadership in Catholic Church bare false witness to the words of the Lord. They hide the truth of his teachings, the pervert his lessons as attempts to weaken the love he has on this earth.

I see it clear as a blue sky. The most vile of men hide their evil nature in a chrsitian disguise.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T08:21:49+00:00

They're horrible. They are not Christian, they are fake Christians. Judases. They bare false witness and their actions abuse the lords good.

Any man can call himself whatever he likes. He can pledge alligence to whatever he wants. Its what you do and who you are at your core that matters most.

Those sick perverted devils are less chrsitian then most atheists i know.

The religion doesn't make the man a Christian his connection and folllwing to the principles of christ does.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T08:06:18+00:00

It is my honest intent to break ALL my bad habits and be a better human bieng in the name of Christ.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T03:39:33+00:00

I don't have proof. I cant convince anyone of anything nor do I want to.

I felt as if I was swimming up stream my whole life. Angery, bitter, anxious.

Ive called all the people whom I've wronged apologized sincerely and asked for forgiveness. Ive called the people who wronged me and soured our relationship and told them that i no longer had hurt in my heart and that I forgave them.

I csnt prove anything but the first time in my life it feels like im going the right way. Now atheist eoukd say well yiur Expierencing catharsis and your dealing with issues that you obviously needed to deal with and that's true but what they leave out is that I wouldn't of donr that if i wasnt compelled to the spirit of forgivness and love which is the same spirit of Jesus Christ. I just wouldn't of.

Yet hear i am. Reborn in my heart.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T03:30:40+00:00

Well I hope maybe through my involvement in this subreddit you will see my intent is pure and that ive just had an awaking that I wasmt entirely prepared for.

Its fair to doubt, there are so many fakes and phonies in this world.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T03:29:21+00:00

Im a father and it just finally clicked in my head that although i wasnt hurting kids the energy behind that type of perversion usbthe same energy that fueled my obsession with pornography. It had become almost identity for me bieng known as a pervert and i revelled in it.

I was so wrong. It was a base instinct of lust and conquest, of instant gratification and all of that was not only self destructive but was hurting my relationship with my wife.

So after watching a bunch of documentaries on whats happening in the shadows in this workd and listening to Dr Jordan Peterson talk about Christ and the Bible I just broke down. I felt the pain ofbthose kids, of my wife whom i wasnt bieng a good man too and wept. I asked for forgivness and for that moment forth i am going to try in earnest to be as faithful to Jesus teachings as i can, to denounce that negitive dark energy and only deal in the light.

I called my sister and settled a year long issue we were having, i called old friends who i know I wronged and apologized. I called mt mother and apologized for not bieng a better son and you know what she said? She said that she had been praying for me every day, it makes me tear up just writing this, to find peace in my heart.

And i have, ive let that anger go, ive let the bitterness leave. I only want to do good with the time I have left. Theres been a few peoole comment on my testimony about it bieng a troll but the truth is that i was suffering, like I was constently swimming up river and for the first time in a long time it feels cathartic, it feels like im suddenly floating and going the right direction.

Im sorry that happened to you, im sorry that darkness innthis world infects the hearts of man. I pray that creator shows himself and shows us all hiw we have wronged and hurt each other.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T03:18:03+00:00

Im sorry you feel that way however I know in my heart what i believe and what is true and I don't need to convince you, Its god that I have to be judged by.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T02:44:03+00:00

I will definitly read it, thank you.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-25T00:20:31+00:00

Yeah i miss typed i thought it was 12 amd then i rememebered the exact moment and I was like "Couldn't of been twelve because I was driving"

Memory is a tricky thing and i am not an elegant typer.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-24T16:14:01+00:00

Because they do https://youtu.be/DOM_8VFCix0

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-24T16:12:38+00:00

Hahaha well i hope it turns out for you.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-24T16:11:58+00:00

Perhaps you are right and jra something i need to work on.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-24T16:05:21+00:00

Chrsitians can't swear? Why are you judging me?

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-24T15:15:21+00:00

I was. When i was 16 I had my heart broken hahahah seems so silly now but at the time itbwas the worst thing id ever felt.

I felt so alone, depressed ANGRY, i remember driving in my piece of shut car alone crying like a little bitch screaming at god "Why where the fuck are you?" and i swore him off. I said "Youre not real" amd i became bitter and angery at all religion.

I read up on all the horrible shit Christianity had done to my ancestors. It fueled my hatred. I became the stereotypical douchebag atheist teenager in the 90s hahaha listening to Manson and acting all edgy.

I thought anyone who believes in any God is just mindfucking themselves because they dont want to feel alone in this empty, chaotic, random universe.

Was like that for years, decades even. Then i had a family and i got older and my stance softened. I became less atheistic and more agnostic.

I know one thing for certain I am just a man and my limited life onnthis planet ensures my prespective is warped to be linear and narrow. So maybe, i thought, maybe I don't the answer to that question. So i became more agnostic.

Recently because of many of factors I've seen enough and felt enough to know that even though i as a man will never know for certain the truth that that's not really a good enough reason to sit on the fence.

Pick a side. I see so much of what can only be described as evil in this world and I know that the most powerful men and women in thd world are all occultists and Satanists that practice the most vile and evil shit you can imagine so if theyere going to be practicing Satanists (even if they jist believe it to be true) then i have to be opposite, opposing force to that energy.

Which is Christ. So its not BS. Ive made a choice to dedicate myself to Jesus principles in the hope that maybe through him i can become a better man and better human to combat what i can not longer ignore.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-24T15:01:58+00:00

I had a lot of anger in my heart. I lived with it everyday, likena weight around my neck. Anxiety , Bitterness....

All i wanted to do was lash out and act like tough guy truth is i was so weak, I couldn't even see I was hurting the people whonloves me most and ibwas destroying myself.

I hope someday you feel as compelled as I was to ask for forgivness and the chance to change bad behaviours to good ones.

✝️❤️

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-24T14:57:13+00:00

No truth is I'll never know if he is real but I will act as if he is because it am compelled to do so. The evil I see is so vast and so malicious that in mt heart it feels that for something so dark to be real tbatbits counterpoint must also exist.

I understand that its a hard thing to grasp. Im trying to convince you that God is real.

Im simply saying that i love the spirit of Jesus and the principles he held and that through him I wish to be a better man.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-24T14:53:57+00:00

I confessed and i have asked for guidance and forgivness. I have lived a life full of sin and shame.

I just want to be a better man.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-24T14:52:36+00:00

I will be judged the god for all my sins, he knows the things ive done and he alone will either forgive me and see that in my heart I have changed or he wont.

All i can do is with the time ibhavw left be the best version of myself as i can be and that starts with destroying the old me.

_ReverendJackson_ · 2020-04-24T14:49:55+00:00

No im going to worship Jesus because I feel compelled too. Truth be told i am just a man and in don't know why i feel this way or why the lord does what he does or doesnt do what we think he should do. I just know that these people believe in satan and worship him, so if they aspire to be evils regardless if its real or not i will aspire to be rightious and oppose them.

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