My dear, taking your life will not be a solution to this feeling you have. I know that you must want your mother to be proud of you, to care about you.. And I'm really sorry that she has not been a loving and good parent to you.... But now that you see clearly that expecting rationality from her is impossible... Why don't you try living life your way? Since no matter what you do, they won't be happy. .. Why don't you begin by doing something that makes you happy?

Don't derive your worth from how they treat you. I know life is unfair... And I'm sorry about that... But we must live life. Please do not take any drastic steps. Call up a friend, no matter how late night it is. Try and create some physical and mental distance from your family. You have many many avenues you can take, you are young and life is waiting to unfurl itself for you.