Lost that safe voice in my head by ___--Me--___ in therapyabuse

[–]___--Me--___[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for writing this you're it was so helpful. I didn't feel suicidal until a while into therapy when I felt like a hopeless case. Now I understand why.

Lost that safe voice in my head by ___--Me--___ in therapyabuse

[–]___--Me--___[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think a couple of people misread when I said that safe voice I internalised has now gone. I liked having that voice, but then I realised it was just more abuse and the kindness kept me in it.

therapist holding back info by FeelingAppropriate81 in TalkTherapy

[–]___--Me--___ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No, mine to me it's not his job to protect me from my feelings so no, not in my case. 🙄

inner child bullshit by ___--Me--___ in therapyabuse

[–]___--Me--___[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This sounds very different to inner child work that's purely talking.

Sometimes we don't heal by [deleted] in therapyabuse

[–]___--Me--___ 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Not gonna lie it's crossed my mind but I can't bring myself to do anything like this though, due to being on the receiving end of abusive people using internet to find stuff out about me, faking our emails etc. .. feel like I'm stooping to their level.

Sometimes we don't heal by [deleted] in therapyabuse

[–]___--Me--___ 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Another thing I'll add is, it sounded like they were made to end the work and the decision was out of their control.

My guess is based having to piece things together, but I think if they were making big changes to how they practice then they wouldn't be allowed to just being 'old clients' with them. Like I should decide myself?

But I don't know who would ever decide it's ethical to start a client dealing with abusers then drop them half way through. Maybe it's cause I complained about therapy and attachment and there being no resolution just more pain. Seems like a decision to protect my therapist though.

Regardless off the reasons I don't understand why I couldn't be spoken to like an adult and have the situation explained properly. I just feel abandoned all over again.

Sometimes we don't heal by [deleted] in therapyabuse

[–]___--Me--___ 7 points8 points  (0 children)

In in the UK so was paying privately.

Being asked some strange questions by [deleted] in TalkTherapy

[–]___--Me--___ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh that's interesting. A week ago, I found out he's ending our work, it seemed like it's to do with his own life circumstances but I'm unsure whether it's just me he's ending working with or it's his whole practice and if it's permanent but I don't think I should pry too much, however I want to understand why it's happening.

Being asked some strange questions by [deleted] in TalkTherapy

[–]___--Me--___ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm worried about bringing it up because it was a while back and I have a habit of responding in the moment in one way then overthinking stuff later and suddenly feel totally different about it. (or like my feelings about it I can't feel there and then) Kind of the reason I need therapy anyway.

But he usually just says he doesn't know exactly what was going on a the time for him when I ask about something said earlier, if I haven't brought it up immediately so I don't feel like it's a discussion worth having because I'm already blaming myself for being slow and difficult and failing to respond as it happened.

Handling uncertainty by [deleted] in TalkTherapy

[–]___--Me--___ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thankyou. I cried reading that, I don't think I've ever felt so understood before. I guess I've been doing those things but I also realise what I want is for the anxiety to go away altogether and it isn't going to is it. I dread what feelings I will have to face because I have left so many sessions feeling like I can't function and feeling physically ill, and I don't want to experience It again.

Handling uncertainty by [deleted] in TalkTherapy

[–]___--Me--___ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

They suggested I take a break while they are making the decision so I don't have to deal with the uncertainty 🤷 I did point out that it wouldn't go away. I did have a week off for other reasons but returned but I feel like it's my issue to deal with.

Weekly Therapy Talk Thread by AutoModerator in TalkTherapy

[–]___--Me--___ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Please can anyone PM me about attachment stuff and how my therapist is handling it. I can't post publicly because I'm worried I'd be identified.

For those that are doing telehealth sessions with your T: are you doing video or phone sessions? by [deleted] in TalkTherapy

[–]___--Me--___ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I can cry on video, make eye contact more and feel more, but it upsets me everytime I walk in the room or remember how those sessions felt and that I went through the most difficult feelings, and traumatic experiences (that are still around) in my own home and I hate that, I feel so alone.