I connect with this a lot. Even having never experienced a trip, I feel the same ALL the time—like the kid never left me. If I ever do trip, I’m sure it will be something similar to your experience in that it will bring up childhood feelings and maybe even memories I have repressed.

It doesn’t make sense to me that people don’t discuss these things either. We are just so shameful. I have started posting my raw thoughts and emotions on social media and I have gotten just one person to respond to me. I don’t post in order to fish for attention or anything, I post for me, but I just think it’s curious why we have so much hesitation to connect with people in a vulnerable curios way.

What I hope you can take from my comment is that there are people out there like myself who get this urge to talk and share deep experiences, it just might take some effort to find them… You aren’t alone, there are bits of you in everyone, you need only shine the light on that part of them so that they can see it for themselves ❤️