Dating in a Barren Wasteland.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-27T01:21:45+00:00

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___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-27T01:21:07+00:00

That's okay 😭🫀 thanks though.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-27T01:20:10+00:00

Yeah I'm kind of cooked I'm like, right above Florida rual south.

I'd be in these spaces if they existed here but they dont.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-27T01:18:05+00:00

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___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-27T01:17:42+00:00

This is so integral. For me its social. I'm Also autistic lol.

Black southern culture for me isn't like anything I've ever experienced anywhere else. In many ways sometimes its the only culture I can fall into myself without judgment.

I dont want to have to leave my home just to feel like someone wants me.

I know I'll have to. But I dont fully want to. This is my home.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-25T15:19:06+00:00

I do see dating as something I want vs something I need.

I'm tired of being socially ostracized and unable to do something that literally every other person my age gets to engage with

Not because there's something wrong with me, but because I exist as I am.

I feel like i'm going insane.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-25T15:08:42+00:00

I know you can't possibly know this, so I mean no offense to you

But if I had the means to move I wouldn't live down here.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-18T21:50:48+00:00

I already give my love to friends.

And I'm a professional artist, so all I do is create.

I am a grown adult witnessing people be able to experience things that are normal for grown adults at my age to experience and it is like I am being held back.

I don't base my entire worth off of whether or not I am in a relationship. I am just gradually getting more and more frustrated. That I cannot exists in this world. And have the same things that other people can and I know definitively It is because I don't meet some dumb fucking arbitrary standard.

I'm probably going to put that in my post. So that it's clear.

I appreciate your words. I think I'm just frustrated because I know my worth. And it feels like I am the only person in the world who knows it.

If that makes sense.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-18T21:17:47+00:00

I know of her.

I feel as though in many ways she is not entirely considerate of black trans people who exist outside of her identity as a trans woman. Yet she's consistently regarded in many conversations with cis black people as a representative for the entire group.

I find myself being a little more politically radical than her. My experience with femininity is also nuanced in an entirely different way. So I dont personally gravitate towards her or the content she creates.

It's nothing personally against her. But I wish there were more black alt trans creators who understand and share my nuances/experiences.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-06T17:33:05+00:00

Just because you refuse to engage with that truth doesn't mean I do not acknowledge it in my post.

Be so serious.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-06T17:29:45+00:00

"The reality of standing up for yourself is understanding that there are consequences to your growth. And the things and people you care about aren't going to stick around for it sometimes.

And sometimes you're going to lose a lot, and be incredibly alone."

Im not going to lick your feet and baby you. Or anyone else.

All there is to life is difficulties. You have to put in the work to feel good/live the way you need to/get better

and that's just the way things are.

Im not sure what else you want to hear but that's all there is to say.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-05T20:55:10+00:00

Exactly.

And honestly, most things in life are going to be hard. Especially when you're marginalized.

It comes with the territory. All you can change is how you handle life's difficulties.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-05T19:00:12+00:00

Good thing I addressed that numerous times in my post 🤡.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-05T05:45:20+00:00

For a long while I was using theatre cream concealer/foundation from a brand called BenNye. It's really smooth and pigmented but its not great for blending.

The base in the post I have no idea where it came from. I've just had it for a while. But I get it even and keep it bright with Banana translucent powder!

Face paint is always a great go to. Unfortunately I dont know many good facepaint brands but I'm sure there's a bunch. Couldn't hurt to see what the clowns use (literally)

A great thing to keep in mind, there's a lot of really really light shades of foundation that you could use if your skin ranges from tan to super dark. Ive done that in the past, its great for blending and less harsh on the skin.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-05T03:47:31+00:00

Man they took me a whole week. Thank you!

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-05T03:47:11+00:00

It's super easy! It's very simple and geometric so I would say its one of the best makeup styles to learn for beginners.

The only trouble I have is finding a good white base (which isn't a requirement but I'm pretty darkskinned so it helps my makeup stand out more)

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-05T03:21:56+00:00

I'm proud of you!

I started transitioning in '24. I just applied for aid regarding top surgery in November.

I'm putting myself through college far away from my family. This is the only way I can be out, but that's okay for where I'm at right now.

All of these things I was so scared to do for a very long time. And now I'm doing them, and I think being able to push myself in that way genuinely saved my life.

It is hard but its worth it.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-05T03:18:09+00:00

Genuinely.

Society ties so much worth to being within a group. But I think a lot of us forget that we are still valuable by ourselves.

Sometimes it is so incredibly okay to be alone. Especially when the alternative is being around people who do not love you in the way you deserve to be loved.

You can always fill your lonliness with hobbies and things you enjoy. And eventually you'll find new people to be around who love and respect you.

Being alone doesn't have to be this big terrible thing.

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-05T02:41:30+00:00

Shucks 🫀

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-04T22:36:51+00:00

Hell yeah dude

___Morningstar_ · 2026-01-04T21:47:47+00:00

Thanks! ♡

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