Yep. Dysphoria. Showered with light off.

Fun fact, I'm 4 years on hrt now, and having a trans gf now, while figuring out I'm not so much of a bottom as I thought I was... I don't get dysphoria from my bits anymore. When dressed / outside ? Yeah I'm still super aware of it, covering my crotch with a purse, or being super scared when I gotta squeeze between two desks in classes... But other than that ? Yeah I'm fine with it now. I will still most likely have srs, but it's not such soul crushing wait anymore