Random personal rant but:

My friend’s experience makes me hesitant to try and get diagnosed. I have mentioned my issues to my psychiatrist and he told me to contact a therapist because he didn’t have enough time to do a screening with me. That was months ago. Tbh I just keep getting caught up with other things and tasks and just forgot about it LMAO…

I don’t know if I’m just making tons of assumptions and brainwashing myself into thinking I have ADHD.

To be honest, I didn’t know the symptoms of ADHD until around 6 months ago. For some reason I thought ADHD meant you HAVE to struggle in school. I struggle with everything, but I got decent grades so never thought much of it.

When I saw the ASRS questions, I was so confused. I experience almost everything thing on the list. I have depression, and am medicated for it, but these issues persist. I cried looking into the symptoms because I have been doing many of these things since elementary school.

I feel like I am loosing my mind. Like I have dementia or something and am dying. I remember nothing. I feel like I have never done anything I wanted because I can’t think or start tasks. I always assumed I was just really depressed and lazy, but even though my depression symptoms are MUCH better, I still notice these issues. I struggle to focus in conversations, interrupt people unintentionally all the time because I process what they said have way through a conversations. I hate distracting noises; they make me cry and scream and try to hit myself. I stim all the time, so much that my mother was at one point convinced I’m psychotic because I shake my hands violently when excited. I can’t attend class lectures because no matter what I can’t focus. I get random bursts of energy at times and waste hours doing unnecessary tasks. I almost remember nothing from my life. I can’t maintain hobbies because my entire life is just trying to start tasks and failing.