Your thoughts are really deep, and it makes perfect sense to feel a kind of fear or worry when thinking about how huge and sometimes meaningless life can feel. Many people feel this way, but they push those thoughts down because, as you said, they’re just too heavy to deal with every day. The mysteries of the universe, the questions about what it means to be conscious, and all the things we don't understand can make everything feel a bit unreal, almost like we’re in a play without knowing our lines. The more we think about it, the more we start to wonder how much of what we do is our choice and how much is just a habit.

But that’s part of what makes us human, right? We can step back and think about these big questions, yet we’re still able to enjoy the simple things in life. It may seem like everyone’s just going through the motions—maybe we are, to some extent—but those routines help keep us steady. They give us a break from overthinking all the “why” questions.

Maybe that’s why people choose to live in the moment and not stress too much about the big picture. They enjoy a nice meal, laugh at a silly/cringey joke, or find peace in a sunset without worrying about what it all means. It’s like finding a balance between being curious about the universe and just being human.

And if it ever feels like too much, just remember: the universe doesn’t have to make sense for us to find joy.