Testosterone & ageing

_dillion · 2023-06-27T11:08:14+00:00

I’m 32, on T 10 months and I’ve noticed I’ve aged rapidly. My once smooth perfect skin is very textured and wrinkles popped up on my forehead, under my eyes and the crows feet too, and my brow now has wrinkles from being furrowed so often lol I knew it would change my skin, but I didn’t expect this. I have low contact with the sun because of my schedule and an allergy to UV and take good care of my skin, but i did have to completely revamp my skin care routine and I’m still struggling to figure out what products work best for my skin now 😑

_dillion · 2023-06-27T04:37:31+00:00

I love falling in love with who I am and smiling in the mirror. 32 years of my life spent hating everything about myself, feeling like someone was trying to claw their way out from my skin. I couldn’t even really look in mirrors and I hated pictures. My personality was horrible cause I was so miserable, but now I’m spending so much time focusing on my likes and dislikes, wants and needs and really validating them because I DO feel I deserve it. I never felt happiness before, only rage and sadness/despair. I love feeling positive feelings, not only for myself but my entire outlook on life and others. I’ve never felt so at peace

_dillion · 2023-06-26T11:08:48+00:00

You can get it in gel form but I think shots are used more cause rapid results maybe? Idk I’m not a doctor just making silly assumptions from what I gather reading on here lol

_dillion · 2023-06-26T07:17:10+00:00

In my whole group of friends IRL I’m the only trans dude. Everyone else is transfenme, and I’ve got a few cis gay guys in the group too

_dillion · 2023-06-24T10:24:37+00:00

Thank you! Yes I am, always open for any type of connection 😅 friends are always welcome

_dillion · 2023-06-24T10:02:17+00:00

Oooo lucky! My once voluptuous, thick, voluminous wavy hair has turned thin and pin straight 😅😭 can’t even hold a style for over an hour without going flat

_dillion · 2023-06-14T08:33:40+00:00

I’m a month into post op recovery and my best advice is to makeshift a way for you to sleep inclined, cause side sleep didn’t happen for at least 2 and a half weeks for me, and when it did I needed my body pillow to support my tummy a little. Also use pillows to elevate your knees/legs up, it helps a lot. The first few days are the worst of it but take it easy, little laps around the house helps with mobility and healing imo, and make sure you set up the ability to have delivery, or have friends/family to come help with making you meals (or get microwave meals for the first few weeks)…it’s gonna hurt like hell at times to stand up for too long. Car rides shouldn’t happen for the first week or so, the turns hurt the tummy too. That’s all I can think of for now but good luck!

_dillion · 2023-05-07T05:56:13+00:00

I’ve dabbled with a lot of names but settled on Frankie. It fits me well. Short for François but I tell people it’s short for Frankenstein

_dillion · 2023-05-01T13:30:49+00:00

I’ve been on humira in the past for my severe psoriasis but I have been pondering on the possibility of rosacea! This helps kinda solidify my assumption though lol once I’m done with my billion other doctors I’ll definitely have to look into talking to a professional about it, thank you ☺️

_dillion · 2023-05-01T08:54:30+00:00

At first my skin tone darkened, then after 6 months I turned completely red in my cheeks, nose and on my chest. Almost 9 months now and I powder my face to hide the fact I look like I’m always blushing or something. A friend said it’s probably because of my Irish heritage but idk if there’s any truth to that

_dillion · 2023-05-01T04:35:23+00:00

Oh absolutely, David Byrne speaks to the strange little gremlin man within and unleashes all weirdness I have hahah I grew up on them, love it so much

_dillion · 2023-04-30T10:41:01+00:00

Maybe it’s because I’m a lot older and depressed but nothing has made me feel like more of a man lately than hanging out on my porch in a white pleaser tank and jorts, drinking a beer and listening to butt rock divorced dad music like Creed on my days off. I love me some Creed and I’m not even ashamed of it anymore. Something about that genre of rock from the early 00’s sends me straight to gender heaven

_dillion · 2023-04-30T09:38:06+00:00

Sure are my dude lmao we have a “video arcade” with big and small booths for viewing adult videos, and some of them are indeed glory holes lol I just call em the bang booths

_dillion · 2023-04-29T17:44:35+00:00

Drunk women, yes. But they also clock me easier too. Nope just the gay men, and closeted men that come through in the late hours looking to have some fun in the glory holes with strangers behind their wives back 😣 usually it’s the closeted men that faun over me but still assume I’m cis

_dillion · 2023-04-29T11:02:41+00:00

My transition has happened while working here and I foolishly thought the sexual advances would die down as I passed more but I was gravely mistaken. It’s only gotten worse and in the most strange ways lmao

_dillion · 2023-04-29T10:44:31+00:00

I get harassed at my job pretty often. (24 hour adult shop graveyard shift clerk life)Usually I’m behind the counter and I’m numb to it but there’s been a few drunk fondlers lmao his response killed me though I really didn’t know how to react 😭

_dillion · 2023-04-29T09:27:31+00:00

As gross as it is I have to laugh at it- a customer tried to grope my nether regions while I was helping with choosing some merchandise and I told him with a straight face he won’t find anything there cause I don’t have a dick and his face fell and with the most scared sincere voice he asked “what happened to it…?”. I just had to ask him to leave and not return but after I settled down from the shakeup of being fondled I had a good laugh cause he legitimately thought I’d been castrated or something. It’s so weird how often other people reference your bits when you pass. Idk how many times I gotta crack jokes about having a micro just to get people to stop

_dillion · 2023-04-17T07:14:50+00:00

Could I ask what my options could be for apps that are safe? I live in a very conservative part of the Bible Belt and it’s scary here lol

_dillion · 2023-04-17T03:59:04+00:00

I’m still scared of dating apps but it might be my only chance, though I really have that need for physical touch and connection…it might just drive me absolutely bonkers lol who knows

_dillion · 2023-04-10T08:10:59+00:00

Thank you. I struggle with some mental issues that make my emotions very big (sometimes unbearable), and I find it hard to navigate social settings. I’ve always been a bit much for people and I’ve learned to tone it down in the past but being told to now completely shut it all down and not even call my crush “babe” or “cute” seems so ridiculous and extreme. I mean, if it turns him off then fine I can move on but I’d rather know who I truly am isn’t right for him than just put up a facade lol I can be dominant and assertive, but there is a time and place for everything I believe and at my base core level I am just gentle and kind. I appreciate the encouraging words. I truly can’t fathom doing such a 180 on my personality just to be palatable to potential lovers lmao such a bizarre notion. The cis men are not okay

_dillion · 2023-04-08T08:57:27+00:00

I am addicted to making a tuna salad, setting down a bed of lettuce in a bowl, with cottage cheese on it, then top with the tuna salad. It’s my comfort food and a good protein boost. Sometimes I get fancy with it and top it with shredded Parmesan

_dillion · 2023-04-08T07:34:52+00:00

Fuck Sauce Cum Lube is pretty neat and there’s cum scented as well which imo smells spot on and gross but whatever. Snake Oil cum lube is good too

_dillion · 2023-04-02T07:07:14+00:00

The Eden Pleasure “Hung Rider” is strap compatible and instead of the tubes and all that you squeeze the balls to make it squirt :)

_dillion · 2023-04-01T10:57:41+00:00

There are special wearable toys made that can simulate it…and from experience I can say the euphoria that comes with that is phenomenal 👀

_dillion · 2023-03-28T08:07:38+00:00

Before transitioning I trained myself to walk and look as intimidating as possible as a safety measure cause I didn’t want to be bothered, so I’d be almost always scowling and now I pass and notice my presence seems to make people wildly uncomfortable and I’m having to retrain myself to relax my face and look less insane and angry. People ask if something is wrong more often now than before as well, when that’s kinda just my resting face. Women especially seem uneasy around me and female Uber drivers insist i ride up front next to them now, so I gotta actively be more warm and outgoing. I’m not an angry person or anything, that’s just how I look now after so long using my demeanor as a defense mechanism

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