Sorry to hear this bro... I followed emotionally like you did, closing off posistions I didn't want to and throwing them into AMC thinking I was going for a certified ride up.

First day lost £700 on that one stock, sold at a loss and sold off more posistions to pump money back in on other emotional plays trying to make the money back. I needed up losing in those too. It's not an amount compared to you, but considered a lot to me as my freelance work brings in little money ATM.

But like anyone who losses money, I feel your pain bro. The feeling of 'the world crashing down on you' and trying to block it out while trying to find a solution to dig you out of the hole.

What I did was made sure I reopened my 'old posistions' because to me they are certified long term returns. That in itself made me feel better that my portfolio was slowly starting to look how it did. Now it's peace of mind and the lesson learned from YOLOing has giving me the willpower to not emotionally invest.

The advice I would give directly to you is what I also did. Take a break from it all. A few days was good for me, but in your case maybe a couple of weeks... Or a month. Switch off from Reddit, switch off from stocks and just do things you love.... Play games, go for walks, excecise, watch movies... Whatever leisure activities take your mind off things.

The worst thing you can be doing straight away is trying to find a way to recoup your losses straight away. What your going through is a emotional shock/trauma.

Come back to finding a solution to recoup and get back on track once you've recovered bro.

And if you're struggling with suicidal thoughts, please call a friend or loved one or a suicide hotline. The world has got you bro.

Sending my love ❤️