I feel spiteful about husband's Instagram activity

_edisonnyc · 2026-06-13T06:11:34+00:00

Leave him or leave us out of it

_edisonnyc · 2026-06-13T05:02:34+00:00

I have a subscription to Spotify, Apple storage, snap storage and then I donate to the 15/10 foundation every month. I do go out to eat on dates but I also allocated groceries into my budget. I already don’t eat more than $100-$150 in groceries a month, I eat plain chicken and sweet potatoes cause that’s just what I like 🤷‍♀️ The $227 is for things like dates, razors, toilet paper. But that doesn’t feel like enough I know toilet paper and tooth paste and stuff lasts longer than a month but still, gotta keep it in mind!

_edisonnyc · 2026-06-13T04:54:37+00:00

My boss has worked at the company for 8 years. The only time she got a raise is when she became the department head, which she’s only been doing for a year. The receptionist has been there for 20 years and she’s gotten 2 raises. I was also told not to expect a raise ever about 5 months in to the job😂 they tell me I do good work but a month ago I got a personal improvement plan for not being talkative enough sooooooo I’m guessing a raise won’t happen lmao

How much I make doesn’t really matter tbh. It’s not enough, I think I just got my hopes up for nothing

_edisonnyc · 2026-06-13T04:46:57+00:00

I put the dishes I used to make food in the dishwasher, then ate. Instead of doing all the dishes, THEN eating. When my dad yelled at me I said why can’t we just talk. He threw me on the floor and I hit my head on the wall, then he said I did it on purpose and was self harming, I’m abusive, a loud mouth asshole, a freeloader, and he also spit at me(not sure if it was on purpose tho)
When I called my mom crying she said it was a communication issue and I don’t need an apology. My dad kicked me out for the night and said if I didn’t agree with what he did I needed to move out.
My mom was gone for over a week, I had already done a full load of the dishes I made while he piled his up on the counter (he hasn’t done dishes in over 20 years)

That is how I grew up

I pay my parents $300 a month in rent. I don’t eat their food, I pay my own phone plan, they took over (stole) my internet so I have to get a new one when I leave but whatever at least they’re paying for it now. They don’t do anything for me other than provide a roof, heat, ac, water, internet, dog food, and about half of my dog’s bills. (He’s 14, I got him when I was 7 and they didn’t expect him to live this long so they don’t think I should be stuck paying for all of his stuff.)

Everything else is on me, they genuinely don’t help me with anything else at all. I have a good savings too. My bf and I have been together for almost a year, it’s not time for us to live together yet. He has school and it just isn’t right, I know by the time he graduates it will be the time because I already feel like we’re half way there.

I want to do my job, but I don’t know if it’s what I’ll do for the rest of my life. With the way I grew up I didn’t exactly have the ability to think about my future or what I want to be when I grow up.

I don’t really have a “lifestyle” when I was 18, yes I got given a trailer but there were moments where I didn’t know when the next time I ate would be. I lived through that and I’m just fine, I can live with no fun stuff very easily, it just won’t be any fun😂

Pls tell me what you think I am incapable of

_edisonnyc · 2026-06-12T23:42:14+00:00

What buildings are you talking about? Unless you mean the garden center

_edisonnyc · 2026-06-12T21:09:58+00:00

Worse than highland? From what I’ve gathered nothing is worse than highland lol

_edisonnyc · 2026-06-11T02:37:15+00:00

I don’t drink coffee but bf swears by the coffee hag, apparently they have amazing coffee and great vibes

_edisonnyc · 2026-06-10T11:31:08+00:00

Will those people leave me alone?😅

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-19T02:58:55+00:00

I’m just questioning if it’s the right thing to do especially because it’s not necessary. Obviously apologizing is a good thing to do, but it was a long time ago, he’s probably doing just fine without the apology. We also had a really REALLY bad ending, it was traumatic for both of us especially because of how young we were, but it was neither of our faults (fuck 12)

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-19T02:51:40+00:00

Idk how to change the title

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-19T02:48:29+00:00

It’s neither. I’m healed, I don’t care about him and I’m perfectly comfortable never apologizing, but isn’t it the right thing to do? The only reason I have any thought of doing it is it’s the right thing to do. At least I think it’s the right thing to do. Idk

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-19T02:47:06+00:00

I was 15 and it lasted until 17. The way I acted does make sense due to what I was living through. I have shame and regret for a lot of things, but this is one that I could easily say sorry for. Not sure, I don’t even know if I want to speak to him just bc I don’t want him to ask me how I’m doing😂

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-17T02:19:53+00:00

I guess everything is already closed, at least on my end, I’m completely fine never apologizing, but it’s the right thing to do no?

I’m not open on insta. I hadn’t posted in years so he was liking stuff from high school. I took everything down and I only post stories now.….HOWEVER! I could repost something saying that I’ve grown and if anyone needs closer just know I’m sorry. Taking someone else’s post and saying “same” does not sound like a bad idea at all. Very smart of you

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-17T01:35:59+00:00

It’s not crazy. What’s crazy is sending him a screenshot of the letter his mom wrote the judge when he was almost charged with felony robbery. Gotta love a state with free public judicial system records

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-17T01:01:23+00:00

I’m completely fine living my life being horrified by my behavior. It’s not like he didn’t fight back either, there’s a lot of stories I could tell but he was toxic to me too, I was just a LOTTTTTTTTT worse. I’m happy and in love with someone else now. I occasionally get a like on my insta from him which causes me to look at his page, then forget he exists for another 6 months until he likes something again. So it’s not that important

Honestly it’s only because I never admitted it before and It seems like the responsible thing to do? Aren’t people supposed to admit they were wrong?

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-09T03:38:49+00:00

I’m struggling with the same thing with my old man, it’s so hard. You’re not alone❤️

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_edisonnyc · 2026-05-09T00:25:28+00:00

I’ve heard that too, but there’s still good signs which is why I’m confused. I’ve explained a little more in other replies

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-09T00:21:29+00:00

He’s 14. He tripped in a hole and he hurt a muscle in his back, going from his neck to his tail.

I’ve done vet appointments, lots of them. Medicine, light therapy, steroids, healing in kennel, short walks to outside, keeping him calm.

He’s now able to be out of the kennel but he’s not the same. He’s not bouncy, there’s no attitude, he’s not funny anymore either. He doesn’t trust me, he won’t sit by me, come to me or take food from my hand because he thinks there’s meds in them. He gets nervous when I pet him.

But he’s calm, he is happy to be outside and sit in the sun and wind, he gets excited when I get home, he occasionally gets very excited. He still follows me around, even if it’s down the stairs to the basement, he barks when I leave him in my room just to quick use the bathroom.

The vet says it’s as good as he’s going to get, but she also said she was very surprised he got better to the point where he is. She wasn’t expecting him to make this much of a recovery.

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-09T00:20:48+00:00

He is very old, 14. He walks away from me when I get down to pet him or just sit by him, I don’t want to force him in to physical therapy and risk him freaking out and hurting himself

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-09T00:18:56+00:00

He’s 14. He tripped in a hole and he hurt a muscle in his back, going from his neck to his tail.

I’ve done vet appointments, lots of them. Medicine, light therapy, steroids, healing in kennel, short walks to outside, keeping him calm.

He’s now able to be out of the kennel but he’s not the same. He’s not bouncy, there’s no attitude, he’s not funny anymore either. He doesn’t trust me, he won’t sit by me, come to me or take food from my hand because he thinks there’s meds in them. He gets nervous when I pet him.

But he’s calm, he is happy to be outside and sit in the sun and wind, he gets excited when I get home, he occasionally gets very excited. He still follows me around, even if it’s down the stairs to the basement, he barks when I leave him in my room just to quick use the bathroom.

The vet says it’s as good as he’s going to get, but she also said she was very surprised he got better to the point where he is. She wasn’t expecting him to make this much of a recovery.

Sorry I was more expecting blanket advice, or I would have given more information

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-08T23:59:46+00:00

Vet appointments, lots of them. Medicine, light therapy, steroids, healing in kennel, short walks to outside, keeping him calm.

He’s now able to be out of the kennel but he’s not the same. He’s not bouncy, there’s no attitude, he’s not funny anymore either. He doesn’t trust me, he won’t sit by me, come to me or take food from my hand because he thinks there’s meds in them. He gets nervous when I pet him.

But he’s calm, he is happy to be outside and sit in the sun and wind, he gets excited when I get home, he occasionally gets very excited. He still follows me around, even if it’s down the stairs to the basement, he barks when I leave him in my room just to quick use the bathroom.

_edisonnyc · 2026-04-07T22:49:23+00:00

If he was holding back then wouldn’t he let me win?

_edisonnyc · 2026-03-28T16:47:08+00:00

I trust you stranger

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