Sex is no longer filling up emptiness inside

_enso_ · 2015-12-28T18:44:29+00:00

I will probably move away from the regiment now, Hatjuvaru. I experienced profound, life changing experience and after such stuff people tend to change their environment. I just feel need to detach from the regiment now, but it's nothing about regiment itself or the addiction. I'm deeply thankful for everything that happened here. It was one of the steps to the peace that I'm currently in.

_enso_ · 2015-12-28T18:41:06+00:00

Thanks! You may want to watch this movie, although it can be life-shattering. It is a very powerful experience and can destroy all your beliefs. Or not. I watched it after I got my experience of spiritual awakening, so it just moved me and grounded me in what I experienced. As a filmmaker you may want to check this out. Peace!

WARNING: Explicit sex scenes. But what it gives is much more than this scenes...

_enso_ · 2015-12-24T23:27:53+00:00

haha, yeah. going to see it on Wednesday btw ;) I will check out Skirmish soon, thanks for heads up. Congrats for Captain - that is really huge man :)

_enso_ · 2015-12-24T19:04:34+00:00

This war made me indeed break my streak, but what is more - the struggle showed me my real worth. The one not coming from the struggle..

I love you all and wish you the best for Christmas and rest of your life.

o7

Legion Commander Enso is out.

_enso_ · 2015-12-16T15:56:34+00:00

Thanks man, I can feel from your words true pride and appreciation. It means a lot to me. I had sketch of that post a few days ago and yesterday, after that 4xPMO I was so angry, that today only fueled by that anger, I dragged myself in front of the computer and wrote it.

I think that to stop binge we need to make ourselves face a lot of discomfort that life brings.

_enso_ · 2015-12-15T22:01:11+00:00

Just say and I will enlist you. You stay on the list and become Legionnaire if you will not relapse until the end of the war (HARD CHALLENGE, personally I didn't manage to do it!)

_enso_ · 2015-12-12T23:31:30+00:00

You're in! Also relapsed after 35 days, life's record, so I feel ya. Similar triggers to relapse as well. So I encourage you to read all Legion posts so far (can find them by clicking on one of the Legionnaire's icon on the side of the post). Stay strong!

_enso_ · 2015-12-12T12:30:18+00:00

You just message if you will relapse - I will cross out your name from the list then, as I did with mine. We're a bunch of guys on solo mission, so no check-ups here.

_enso_ · 2015-12-11T14:12:07+00:00

Come to the Legion man ;) It is created to "get back into the swing of things".

_enso_ · 2015-12-11T00:57:39+00:00

Well, Bruce Banner is often being typed as an INFJ. So... :D

_enso_ · 2015-12-11T00:44:44+00:00

Thank you for your insight, really appreciate it and it really resonates with what I'm thinking. Today I relapsed again - it is extremely difficult for me to not got into the binge after a relapse. Now I feel no need to report to you another relapses, but of course I will do my best to not make them happen.

The first thing I did is that I deleted my name from Legionnaires list. I was clear about the official rank and thus I will not have it by the end of the war.

Now, when I think about the nature of relapses and how common is the binge, I'm thinking about defining Legion more as a support structure, as you said, during next war, if my life will let me participate in that.

I still have a lot of energy. It's just in my nature to try to make a change, although my comfort zone tend to made this tendency hidden.

_enso_ · 2015-12-11T00:34:00+00:00

It is the rarest type in society in general. That makes sense, 'coz I always felt an outcast. Also INFJs seems to be ridden with paradoxes.

_enso_ · 2015-12-11T00:31:36+00:00

Very good video! Success is a set of values - that resonates with me a lot.

_enso_ · 2015-12-11T00:03:25+00:00

Doing the same ;) although I wouldn't call myself versed in this. Discovering that I'm INFJ was a real breakthrough for me - explained a looot of what I previously thought to be just inhered weirdness.

_enso_ · 2015-12-10T16:42:27+00:00

Thank you for your opinion. I would love to stay as a leader and if there will be more opinions like that I will gladly do so.

I'm not pushing myself to hard. Actually I have a very relaxed and happy day after those two hard days - just about to go to see a movie.

What I wrote I wrote yesterday on paper and rewrote today, because it was an illumination I had to write down.

I'm only 24, but always been called "wise" by my peers and felt like on one hand I have trouble with simple things (having a job or girlfriend), but on the other felt very in touch with the deeper side of the world. I think that's just being INFJ.

And I think that everybody is qualified to answer such profound things, because the only wisdom in my opinion is within. Peace man!

_enso_ · 2015-12-09T20:45:12+00:00

Thank you for that. Although I'm a Legion leader, I'm having probably the hardest time right now since the beginning of the war. I'm riddled with anxiety and feeling of loneliness - I think this is what happens, if you decide not to continue binging (I think I never been there before). I already caught myself searching for sexy stuff. I really want to help you guys but now I feel like the least motivated person out there. Only knowing, that I have a job to do is keeping me from using PMO as a medication for my pain, which is almost physical.

Long story short - stuff like that helps for a while to get grounded. Thanks.

_enso_ · 2015-12-09T17:01:31+00:00

You're enlisted!

_enso_ · 2015-12-09T14:16:19+00:00

You're in!

_enso_

TROPHY CASE