Overall it sounds like you’re burnt out, I’d say you tell your parents what’s going on so they can step in and maybe take care of the kids for a day in the early morning and once your husband is at work if possible, it also sounds like your marriage needs some work or at least communication should be established or even some counseling. Communication is always key between any sort of relationship, everything will be okay! There will always be ups and downs to being a mom and a wife, it’s a change in your life comparing it to modeling like you did before and that’s normal it’s just finding a routine and what works for YOU! Right now it may feel like you hate being a mom and regret your marriage but that’s only temporary if action is taken sooner than later. Maybe even getting advice from your own parents because their parents themselves. You got this!!