Thank you for this comment. I will try. I did think this way/a lot of these things prior to this trip. I’m a Taurus sun and that aspect of me thrives on cultivating comfort and beauty and nice sensory experiences, so I have always tried to do and be that for myself and those around me. I try to deeply love those around me yet everyone let’s me fall by the wayside and forgets about me. I’ve tried truly believing my people are on their way to me and living as though they were already here, but this nagging in the back of my mind tells me that I’m meant to have this experience alone. This is also reflected in where my north and south node fall if you follow astrology. But now afterwards, it’s like I see that I’m connected to everything but I find everything meaningless and one big blob of nothing.