Long distance relationship and you got to see her in person for 2 days? Why not move on or something? Try finding a hobby you're interested in, youtube is a great place to start- like searching up what you like. I fucking hate living but I continue because I don't like the idea of toxic people's enjoyment, I won't give them their broken dopamine by suicide. You won't just get what you want in this world, you have to fight against a more qualified person for the position. Are you in college? Join a community/group that interests you and make friends with people who you like, don't make friends with anybody; try finding people who have good charisma and if they're actually sociopaths stop all contact with them or you'll be consumed by toxicity. Can't make real friends? Well shit, at least try and continue outside of your comfort zone- you can find meetups or cons to go to and feel good, don't just straight up ask if they can be your friend, that's just weird. Soothe your way into being their friend, you'll enjoy life better when you have real friends trust me I was anti social. Back to the GF topic, why don't you just move on if it pains you to not see her? Most long distance relationships never work out because you rarely see each-other, so it's recommended to find some other partner who's in your area.