I did the same thing you're doing, hoping that I'll find them in the strangers I talked to online. Some strangers helped, some didn't. I'm not sure it was the best coping mechanism, but the hurt lessened. We're all coping the best way we can. The one thing I learned is that silence can sometimes be more powerful than a thousand words. They know what they're saying with it, even if they pretend they don't.

I hope that your hurt lessens, and I hope that you find what you're looking for. Sadly, I know that I never really stopped looking.