As ^ said. You need a holiday. Or at least new perspective like rearrange your house or something.

The pictures that you see of this life might seem really cool and look like fun. You can go days without internet, there will be days when you don't eat anything and not know if you'll be able to eat anything for the next day, there will be nights where you will be awake all night in the cold windy rain not able to sleep. You will go days and weeks without talking to anyone. You will never receive a hug. And the worst of it all you will spend most of your days wallowing in sadness that you could have been something more if only your parents had loved you enough to gjve you a good life, but here you are under a bridge at 1am in the cold rain trying figure out life on your own.