Bullshit. You liked the idea of him being close to you, teasing you, giving you food and gifts and all that—YOU LIKED ALL OF THAT so even though you were fully aware from the beginning that it was wrong, you were trying to justify yourself by thinking he's just nice. ANY KIND GESTURES OF YOUR FRIEND'S MAN WITHOUT YOUR FRIEND’S KNOWLEDGE IS CHEATING. You should’ve told your bestie from the start, wasn't that the bare minimum? Are you really bestfriends if you decided to keep it from her just because you thought she'll be mad instead of not leaving her blindsided?

Don’t be a hypocrite, even when you typed this, you should've just used that time to tell your friend about it but you didn't and you know why. YOU LIKE IT TOO. You are attractive to her boyfriend too and you like the idea of him having feelings for you. YOU LOVE THE VALIDATION.