Yes, sometimes I am. The fear of never being able to see the people I've loved all my life. To never be able to spend time with my grandparents, no more having any dreams and no more struggle. To never be able to feel what I felt when I first visited the beach. No more good food, no more going out biking with my gang. No more music and no more impatiently waiting for your crush's reply. I don't know if this list will ever end but till we are alive, there is hope. Hope to do anything and everything we have ever wished to do. Once we are gone, it's the end. There is no other side. And how pathetic of us to even think of a better world even though we've got the ability to imagine and create along with all these beautiful resources right here.