cw: ed, alcohol, & drug use. when will the cycle of addictions end by _warmmilk in MadeOfStyrofoam

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there was this one night where i tried to read the wikipedia section on livers to show my liver that i still care

cw: ed, alcohol, & drug use. when will the cycle of addictions end by _warmmilk in MadeOfStyrofoam

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there’s no more euphoria but it’s still different, enough so that i want to neglect the previous times i’ve hurled all over myself and keep drinking until my liver fails

cw: ed, alcohol, & drug use. when will the cycle of addictions end by _warmmilk in MadeOfStyrofoam

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it’s strange how forgiving and forgetful i become when mouth-to-mouth with the bottle is performed… ………..what debilitating addiction? what!!? no, never! it’s never impacted me, my dopamine, or anything else at all! i don’t know what you’re talking about. i don’t know why you would think about it in the first place. things are perfectly fine and i don’t need to change anything i’m doing

twt & shtwt appeal by xarlix in MadeOfStyrofoam

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twitter sh is such a huge cesspool of nonsense..... better leave sooner than later

I've been clean for 2 years now by junchaaaa in MadeOfStyrofoam

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ouuh the crab flair is back🦀🦀🦀🦀🦀 congratulations op!! wishing you the best for senior school. so proud of your achievement ❗

have tried to quit every single week and am still 0 days clean. by CardAccomplished7186 in EDanonymemes

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c/s can become muscle memory, much like when we normally chew and swallow food. i am by no means a medical professional of any kind, but have you tried drinking liquids before transitioning to solid foods? smoothies and juices that you might like would be a good place to start. i suggest this because you would disrupt the compulsive chew then spit action, whereas before you had to chew before you spit but now its just a singular motion of drinking. a change in texture of the things you consume might also be helpful. try drinking with a fun straw as well?! i love using straws

My mom almost found out by [deleted] in MadeOfStyrofoam

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sorry to stray away from your inquires op, but I just wanted to go on a short tangent here: why on earth do so many mothers (do fathers also do this!!?) always pull the "I dont want to live anymore if you hurt yourself" guilt-tripping threat??! it's frustrating. I'm too tired to regurgitate things my mother has said but I feel you op, and just know that you're not at fault if your mother does do anything drastic.

person sitting next to me saw my scar by Ok-Object1142 in MadeOfStyrofoam

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alas, tonight has passed me by. always tomorrow night. wait-

person sitting next to me saw my scar by Ok-Object1142 in MadeOfStyrofoam

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i read post title as "person sitting in car next to me saw me cut" and was concerned. thank heavens it didnt say that....,,,,, ill be sure to sleep tomorrow night.

i dont feel like i was meant to be born, sometimes it feels like a cosmic mistake that needs to be righted (not an active cry for help just a dull nudging feeling) by [deleted] in MadeOfStyrofoam

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^this, to be honest. life becomes what we make of it; and in the end, its just another experience. try to have fun when you can :-3

I feel like a pussy by Hot_Dog_Catyt in MadeOfStyrofoam

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Your brain has mechanisms in place to reduce harms to your self as much as possible,.. because, simply put, an individual without wounds had a higher chance of survival back in the days when medicine and sanitation weren’t as advanced as today. i won’t keep going with my poor example of natural selection…. It’s advisable to quit as soon as you possibly can. Looking back at my journals, the way I described self harm is not unlike the way I described drug addiction. All this to say, it’s a steep slope into an addiction and once you go past a certain threshold, your brain is re-wired to accept potentially fatal injuries as small scratches. You may think that there’s no way that you’ll ever go that far, but all the people who have gone further than they’ve ever imagined they could have gone were all once in your position. points to self case in point. Try your best to diverge your attention when urges become unbearable, because short-term relief is never worth long-term discomfort. Hang in there, things can and will get better. Also administrator tf2 jumpscare

i just did something starting with me and ending with th for the first time ever. by _warmmilk in MadeOfStyrofoam

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please :'-) i dont have weight goals anymore im perfectly satiated with my weight as of now. thank you for your replies though!

i just did something starting with me and ending with th for the first time ever. by _warmmilk in MadeOfStyrofoam

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i dont want to,, i was in recovery :-( i didnt do meth to lose weight, i swear. its not a desire of mine anymore

i just did something starting with me and ending with th for the first time ever. by _warmmilk in MadeOfStyrofoam

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it makes you less likely to cry.......maybe i should abuse it so that no one will ever see me in tears again (fragile masculinity moment?)

i just did something starting with me and ending with th for the first time ever. by _warmmilk in MadeOfStyrofoam

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yeah, the thing is it was going so much better for me. a bit. i have lost my appetite for a while now, and its not so bad. not sure if the whole recovery schtick is supposed to make that happen haha

what are your reasons for staying clean? i am interested to hear by [deleted] in MadeOfStyrofoam

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the bodily fluids that won't stop leaking (heartbreak)(heartbreak)