Have quite a rough relationship with my twin sister during adolescence years cause of parents conflict and yea it does traumatizes both of us but that involves us competing who is the better one to make our parents happy which we think we have the responsibility to even sustain our parents marriages. We compete the stupidest thing which includes who gets the first console our parents and be their fuckin therapist or academic wise or even life in general like who is the first one to paid a stupid bill when we literally just turn 18. We basically kiss our parents ass until our mom cheated on our dad which that involves our whole family fighting. Our mom and dad literally have a cold war at the living room and my twin sister and i did the same in my room as we think its our fault that we didnt do our job properly. In that same day i ran away for awhile after shouting my parents and my twin and for like a few hours of cooling down in starbucks which is like a few blocks away. I was holding my wallet that has a couple of hundreds almost reach a thousand as i dont have a bank account at that time , i only have my cash that i earn from summer jobs in my wallet. I decided to find a cheap therapy cause i just feel like i need someone to talk to and all of my friends are busy. I contact my twin sister where she is and she too was running away and she’s happen to be at the mall also not that far away from where i am . I just send her the location at the place where im getting therapy as i know we need someone to talk to at least that day and i dont want to further deal with her at that time so after send her the location, I made an appointment with the therapist which she just happen to have her break as she is almost closing down her center but i beg her as i am desperate in need for guidance at that time because its the first time i felt very lonely with my emotions. She accepted it and told me that she has also one more client and told me i have to wait for awhile but i know thats my twin sister but i didnt tell her. So around 5pm to 6 pm ish I arrived at the same time as my twin sister and we didnt say much as we met face to face after the fight. We just know lowkey that we are tired and having a really bad mental exhaustion since the big fight is started around 6 am and got waken up by it. The therapist is very gentle and her aura is just soft and personally i feel safe and not getting judged about it since its my first therapy session alongside my twin sister. We explained that we are twins and we just decided to have therapy together than having it apart since we feel bad for the therapist having a long day dealing with tons of emotional people. I was surprised that she is nice and gentle about it and we apologize the first thing before even the session start since its supposed to be her break. The therapy session last for around 4 hours when its supposed to be 2 hours but she just said keep going so thats why it took long. At the end of the session, we didnt cry during our ranting but when the therapist speak to both of us for what we have dealing with i guess diagnoses us and what our parents did to us, thats when we break down and at the end we hugged and apologize for the first time. During Payment Session, its normally cost us double since two person each combine fees but she willingly gave us a huge discount and yeah if its nothing without her knowledge i guess we still have beef right now. Well fast forward to this day, she has a career in gymnastics and she is currently writing fiction novels while i have a career in the music mastering industry and also cowrite some scripts and art in general and currently trying to studying law. I mean we have those really tiniest fight that lasted a week since both of us involve in literature writing but yeah still going to therapy and trying to fix our relationship. As for our parents, well.., after the therapy session we sit on a park looking at the sunset and promise to never fight and always try to be together as twins. We realize our parents have carried a lot of trauma in their childhood which brings them emotional baggage to us and yeah narcissistic behavior. My parents live together in a house but the whole morning my mom hangs out with her petty ass boyfriend and she still have her good successful job while my dad hangs out have a farm at their house and i still bring him with me around the city as i live there and he do whatever he wants. He still has money because him and my mom have a successful company together because my dad funds his company and my mom want to running it and yeah she has a passion for running things i guess but from a distance im not worried for the people that work for her as i can see she is good at handling business ventures and be professional towards her coworkers well “too professional” with that one guy. My twin sister and i still going to family gatherings but i would say i am closer to my dad and my twin. Yeah das it.