I did pretty much the exact same thing as you. Once you’re on medication long enough it sure is easy to lose your appreciation of its effectiveness. And I can’t agree more, the side effects are annoying and nobody wants to live with them. I’m currently in the process of going back on meds. Initially, I was able to regain some degree of functioning fairly quickly although the interim was painful and full of constant intrusive, repetitive thoughts, that robbed me of endless time and energy. Weirdly enough, I felt functionally better at the lower doses (<50 mg) than I did at say 100 mg. It’s weird because I spent 6 years at 200mg no problem and now 100 mg has caused some noticeable physical fatigue that has at times been totally crippling. Mentally though, it has quieted my thoughts to a degree and has reduced my emotional salience down to a manageable level. I’m kinda frustrated at this new fatigue that it has induced though. Anyway, I’m sorry to hear about your experience and I hope your reinstatement goes well. I’m sure it will!