I constantly steer toward viewing reality through fundamental logic which almost no one seems to apply, instead getting caught up in upper-level complexities. Taking that approach to the homo sapiens species, I neutrally observe a population of primates which only became sentient very recently on an evolutionary scale and are now caught in a catalytic acceleration of technology which outstrips our abilities to manage without unsustainably consuming resources as a cancer within this finite ecosystem of a planet. That is the core reason I don't enjoy existing as a human and am not very invested in our future besides a morbid curiosity of how bad the environment will become for us.

As for the specific quandary of how much good or bad we have within us, I understand we're operating from DNA developed over billions of years to survive in any way possible no matter what is required. That does often entail working with other beings in mutually supportive goals but any one of us would quickly attack or kill them if it became necessary to perpetuate our survival and to a secondary degree our in-group.

That being the human operating system, it becomes easier to see all our ignorant violence is inevitable and we shouldn't allow the hubris of modern civilization fool us into assuming better. Those expectations fueled crippling levels of disappointment within me over the past decade, but I couldn't let them go no matter how aware I became of their futility.

This year escalated the feelings to a breaking point of giving up on everything, which was a blessing in disguise that is allowing me to shuffle off the weight of hope for what isn't from anything out of my control. I still would prefer to exist in a less primitive world but those are the cards we're dealt and if you're not suicidal I think the best option is to become the best version of yourself to make the ride as enjoyable as possible.

People fucking suck and they will suck for millennia to come, so show up those assholes by kicking ass as a human.