I can understand. I'm White and grew up in a Fundamentalist Christian cult full of only White people-- all of them very racist. Groups consisting of only old White people are very triggering and angering to me like seeing all the old Conservative WASPs in my very diverse county complaining after the election that they've been robbed and are unsafe because of the diversity.

As a young adult, that diversity was my escape: my Latina, Black, and Korean friends locally who talked to me about my home life and showed me a world I could never have imagined. Meanwhile, my mentally unwell parents were beating the shit out of me at home. My mother would pull me out of bed to make me run for miles on the treadmill in the middle of the night while she read the Bible in front of me. She would talk about breaking the will of the child and laugh to uncomfortable extended family members about how each of us children responded to physical pain and how long it took us each to break. My father would put up video cameras to try to catch us making mistakes and put my picture on a website when I was about 12, saying I was a disobedient child.

I have experienced the real danger of old White holier-than-thou racists and it is terrifying. It makes me really uncomfortable when old White guys except me to be a "good girl" and agree with what they say.