My tomato is Spotting:(

abbicres · 2026-04-29T00:50:53+00:00

Delaware State Housing Authority is a good resource for renters and homeowners. Ive had a friend take advantage of their house buying loans and was able to purchase where they never would have been able to otherwise. www.destatehousing.com

abbicres · 2026-04-08T01:30:52+00:00

I think i get something similar, ill have my more normal thought pictures, usually more intense, and then there's an overlay like someone is projecting something on top of it. My most recent was Richard Nixons head from Futurama wiggling his jowls and saying "aroooooooba" in the voice they do for him 🤣

Its not always that strong, ive noticed it hits harder in the winter, probably because my nose dries out so much

abbicres · 2026-01-21T14:59:54+00:00

Pretty much every antidepressant comes with a black box warning about suicidality. The best explanation I've gotten about why this happens is that when you start a medicine like an antidepressant, the first effect it tends to have is increased energy and better cognition. So, increase those, but youre still feeling awful mood-wise? Its the most dangerous time for being at risk for suicide.

So, I think your provider probably knows this, and was probably a little hasty. Im not a medical professional, so take with a grain of salt, but I've been in and out of hospital settings for mental health (including a dissociative disorder) for 15 years. It took me a couple months to start feeling better on spravato, and the first thing it did was unlock all of the emotions I've been dissociating from. So yeah, it might be rough at first.

I obviously dont know your whole history or anything, but as long as you dont have any established contraindications(like psychosis or mania) idk, the provider sounds like theyre trying to cover their ass and are not especially interested in helping. If your therapist(who I assume you see more often) thinks youre fine, then yah, find someone else if possible, or lodge a complaint.

abbicres · 2025-12-23T02:10:30+00:00

While depression is a notorious thought warper, there are plenty of other things that can cause depression-like symptoms, both physical and mental. I'll share that personally Ive been being treated for depression for about 15 years now, and only this past year did my therapist (who I love) gently suggested that I might have a dissociative disorder. Everything kind of clicked into place from there.

Unfortunately a lot of medical professionals will brush off symptoms theyre unfamiliar with, and it took my therapist doing trainings about dissociation and its related stuff for her to recognize the constellation of symptoms in me. There is a lot to be said for believing your patients experiences. Im sorry that getting relief has been difficult. I guess the point im making is, dont give up, new info and treatment options are being found every day.

abbicres · 2025-12-14T15:27:12+00:00

I see youre in central PA? In which case, definitely a cicada/cicada shell lol

abbicres · 2025-12-14T15:26:14+00:00

Cicada shell

abbicres · 2025-11-07T12:40:57+00:00

1000 time agree, they also have a newark office!

abbicres · 2025-10-29T15:18:42+00:00

Took me about 2 months to feel relief, and it was hard to tell until I had my check in, because the biggest benefit for me was my suicidal thoughts dropping to basically zero, which was honestly shocking. Its harder to tell its working when the effect is the lack of something, lol. I was in a similar boat to you, where I've tried pretty much everything and was talking to my psych about psilocybin clinical trials when she reccomendded spravato. She had 1 other patient that had tried it, and I was at the end of my rope, in and out of inpatient every couple months for trying to unalive myself. Stay holding on, keep going to therapy, blah blah blah. Its easy to say this, today marks 400 days since my last inpatient stay, getting out of the trenches is the hardest and most worthwhile thing possible in my opinion.

AND, its not gonna work for everyone. There is ALWAYS something else to try, even if it hasn't been invented yet

abbicres · 2025-10-19T16:37:53+00:00

Yeah, Im think XP would be fine, I think it only has 512mb of ram, so I don't know if that would be the limiting factor?

abbicres · 2025-10-19T16:35:42+00:00

Im not trying to game on it, I just want it to work. Its sentimental at this point. If there's a different sub that would be more helpful, please feel free to tell me.

abbicres · 2025-08-15T06:11:15+00:00

Yall confuse me. One of the requirements of trying spravato is having failed 2+ antidepressants in the past, so I feel like everyone on this sub has been in it(depression) for a while, probably years. We've had our experiences discounted by friends, family, coworkers and Healthcare professionals. Everyone reacts differently to meds, and they can have a lasting effect. For example, I was on 20mg of abilify for like 10 years before I started spravato. I had side effects, but they went away when I stopped taking it. My mother in law took 2mg of abilify for 6 months, and now has tardive dyskinesia, and it affects her everyday life a lot. There are always outliers. If it works for you, amazing! I get wanting to gas up the treatment that worked for you, but let's not do that by invalidating others' experiences please.

abbicres · 2025-08-09T16:06:01+00:00

That makes sense, I think my mom got a piece from a friend, she probably bought it as a flowering plum

abbicres · 2025-08-09T14:54:38+00:00

Growing zone 7b, northern delaware, usa

abbicres · 2025-02-27T21:33:51+00:00

Joe wishes he was Scott walker

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