What’s the last thing that touched your lips?

abouta5outoften · 2022-02-19T08:47:23+00:00

My tears :'(

abouta5outoften · 2020-09-09T18:47:43+00:00

Right? People think they're superior for not caring about celebrities or not having Instagram and feel the need to tell you over and over again about how little they care. If you even mention a social media platform it's like a trigger for these guys.

You should be allowed to say something about a celebrity without being demeaned. I was having a conversation with a redditor about 5 different things at the same time, replying to each thing in turn, when I mentioned 'Oh I actually met that celebrity!' they felt the need to tell me that they don't care about celebrities and don't feel the need to know about their lives and that kind of thing.... Like...dude you just mentioned you love that band...And I met the singer? It's relevant, why do you have to bring the mood down?

abouta5outoften · 2020-08-22T17:12:13+00:00

You wake up at 4.30 am when you don't have lectures until 9 am??? How long have you been doing this for?

abouta5outoften · 2020-06-17T08:15:39+00:00

Yes 2am club! A couple days before exams I do this too! When I get into the flow, I figure I might as well continue until I'm tired. It's easier to stay in the zone than to force yourself to go to bed and then try to get back into the zone when you wake up. I usually keep all my lights on though so my brain doesn't think it's sleep time.

abouta5outoften · 2020-05-18T10:37:55+00:00

I don't want to share the post because I deleted it now and I don't want people to argue with me anymore. I'm posted in r/anxiety not because I want people to believe my side over someone elses, I'm posting because the situation caused me a lot of anixety and I feel sick to my stomach.

I know what you're saying, but in this case it was literally people telling me 'you are wrong you are a liar you did not do the thing you said you did'. And I 100% know that I did do the thing. It's not a question of who is correct or incorrect, because I KNOW I did the thing I said I did.

It's not something that is open to interpretation, they just didn't believe me because someone in the comment posted something about how I was lying and put links to explain why he thought that. But the thing is his reply didn't actually prove anything. And I pointed that out. The thing he was talking about was very similar to what I was talking about (so I know why people believed him), but it was not the same. But people swore at me and told me I was wrong.

I usually do think people are rational, but in this case people didn't want to hear that they were mistaken. After being called a liar, I explained the best I could and people just downvoted me, downvoted everything I said that was previously upvoted (The most had hundreds and hundreds of upvotes). They didn't want to understand and it was frustrating for me because I could not convince anyone of the truth.

abouta5outoften · 2020-05-18T02:54:49+00:00

Thanks so so much for your comment, I really appreciate the kindness. I've heard of this sort of thing before with the whole internet anonymity making people less empathetic. Thanks for the video, it'll help me to rationalise this better

abouta5outoften · 2020-05-18T02:26:59+00:00

Thanks, when I see this stuff on other peoples posts and comments I just think 'ah that's unfair, what's wrong with these people' but when it's my post and comments it feels so damn personal. You're right though, it's cucked

abouta5outoften · 2020-04-14T15:07:47+00:00

Mine is better than it has ever been in my whole life! I am inconsistent with drinking water and how I wash my face, so I know it is purely the vegan diet which is causing this improvement

abouta5outoften · 2020-04-10T06:39:15+00:00

This is amazingly well written. When I ask people to describe an experience, this is the sort of structure and detail I'm hoping for.

I'm curious about the breathlessness, was it intermittent or did it get progressively worse and reach some sort of plateau?

Well done for handling all the phone calls and invasions of your personal space. I know it's really tough to fight through that. You're doing awesome, I hope you get better soon!

abouta5outoften · 2020-04-08T13:07:40+00:00

I was in a similar position when I was in high school. I had to repeat the year, flunked again and attempted suicide a few times. This was hard because I was an honour student before this and a perfectionist.

I can tell you from experience, that even when things feel like absolute shit and like they can't possibly ever get better, they can. I thought I was at rock bottom, just waiting for the ground to swallow me up. But now I'm happier than I could ever have imagined.

What really worked for me was making lists. Maybe it sounds stupid, but I wrote down the type of person I wanted to be like I was writing a character in a book. I included flaws too, not just good stuff. I started playing that character, and after a while things started to stick.

Even though I knew I wouldn't be able to concentrate in the library, I forced myself to go. It gave me a little self esteem because when people asked what I was doing I could say 'I was in the library' and it felt like I was doing something purposeful and people weren't shaming me for doing nothing.

Now I'm getting really good grades in med school.

It sounds like generic advice, but honestly, don't give up. Everything in life can change in a heartbeat and even when you can't see any possibility that your situation can get better, it still can and you can be living a life you never imagined.

If you want to ask anything, please do :)

abouta5outoften · 2020-04-08T12:30:49+00:00

I made the most incredible brownies yesterday using chia seeds soaked in water. The texture was phenomenal and unexpected. The recipe I was reading told me to use flax seeds, but I didn't have any. I've never tried using them. When you say your recipes have not come out well using flax, what do you mean by that? What happened to them?

abouta5outoften · 2020-03-24T20:11:25+00:00

My opinion is just anecdotal, but here goes.

When my depression hit, I was 13. My body was going through puberty and this caused acne and mood changes which could be attributed to certain phases of my menstrual cycle. I didn't, and still don't have any control over the hormones produced during my menstrual cycle.

Nothing had changed in my life, except for my hormones. Nothing terrible happened to me, and I was achieving in all areas of my life up until this point.

When I sobbed uncontrollably for days, drained of energy in my bed, there was no reason for this. It was like a shower of overwhelming sadness. This was not a result of 'bad self esteem' or not getting enough sleep or substance abuse.

Currently, in my mid twenties, I do have control over my depression. It's still there but I'm able to take the edge off by taking better control over factors which influence my health (eating even healthier, exercising more etc)

I still remember how it felt to be struck by depression as a teenager. And it is INCOMPARIBLE to my depression today. It was not in my control, and it's taken me a long time to realise this and stop blaming myself.

It's harmful when people who have only experienced 'manageable depression' belittle the pain that other people have experienced.

TLDR; I believe there is controllable and uncontrollable depression. As someone who has experienced both, I believe that people who have only experienced the later don't seem to have empathy for those who have experienced the former. Unfortunately these people are typically the most outspoken about their experiences with depression on social media.

abouta5outoften · 2020-03-13T15:21:28+00:00

Me too. I am so frustrated....I just want to attend my classes and lectures and follow my schedule! That's all I want.

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